there will always be a tiny piece of my heart that silently breaks when I catch myself having fun.
You know it really sucks that there is so much you want to say yet you can’t it’s like some force has been used that you just can’t open your mouth and the frustration because of it makes you lose inside your mind and this is what I call it as the reality of loss. It is as bad as you think because nothing in this world can repay for the loss one goes through, not even themselves. No matter what people say or their motivation nothing worked out and that really sucks because nothing can cheer you up, it’s like finding a piece of sugar from a bag of salt which we all know is not possible. I just know what has happened it can’t be made right how much you try it will always haunt you in the back of your mind ALWAYS. Talks, people, and moments are some of the precious things that people have in their life and among them if something is lost it becomes a pain forever. No matter what people say if it but pain can never be forgotten and it can’t be made better, IT JUST CAN’T. I have learned that pain and loss don’t need solutions because in the first place they don’t even have them they are not exactly problems but a phase of life that can never be forgotten. If you see people happy that doesn’t mean that they are over with the loss because some loss can’t be cheered up and reality is far from it. I just know you don’t want people to give you a solution for it but acknowledge them telling you to cry, scream whatever makes you feel better you need people to see through your eyes about the feeling that you feel. It’s like you are alone sitting in a dark room and you don’t want people to open up the door for you because it’s you who have to do it you just need them to sit with you in a dark room and give you encouragement words to assure you that they are with you and give your the courage until you are ready to open up the room by yourself.
I know I know I missed two uploads because I am not feeling well for the past few days, it’s more emotional than physical feeling as I am dealing with it still a lot has to pass but in a few days I will be celebrating the second anniversary of my blog and I have prepared a little surprise for you all, hope that you will like it – a spoiler it’s my first attempt on it and I am eagerly waiting for your reactions.
imagine waking up in an alternate reality where everything is different and nothing looks familiar but you are still expected to function normally…
that’s how it feels
reality of loss.
Till we meet again, Be happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.
A girl who likes to write 
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