The Story of Broken Relationships!

Sometimes you have to make a decision that will break your heart but will give peace to your soul.

Any relationship is the effort of both parties, a person will receive and need to give for the relationship to develop a strong bond. However, it doesn’t seem as easy as said because each person has their own thoughts which might clash and that is why communication is very important which leads to understanding and mature bonds in any relationship. Any broken piece of glass be it big or tiny can pierce the skin of people very badly and it’s just a physical cut, it will heal. However, it is said when a relationship is going to break people can feel it just like glass it pierces the skin exactly the relationship which is broken breaks the person’s existence and makes them question what they did wrong. And the difference between them is the physical cut of glass will heal and will be long forgotten but broken relationships will always stay in the memories and whenever something related to them comes forward we are thrown into a flashback which is more intense as we relive all the pain again. There are always two sides to a story, one where a person chooses a relationship over him/her or where a person chooses him/her over the relationship. When decades of a relationship come to an end it hurts a lot and some might not even want to end it because the memories the relationship has created the bond everything from so many years will make one feel that it will all be waste and that is why people tend to be in a relationship where they just want to escape but not want to end it. I always watched people having such big groups of friends including myself but I only have a few whom I talk to daily and now I have realized that having only one friend that I talk to daily is heavenly for me because that one friend of mine doesn’t make me feel like I need another one and that one friend of mine is enough for me.

It hurts to let go of a relationship especially friendship when the flashback appears or the moments in the present or the future which you both talked about in the past take place but with whom you planned out everything is just not there or they are there but not like before it’s more formal now. I always heard that with time people change and you lose them and now I truly believe in it because it’s not time or people that change them, it’s just them they wanted to change and they allow it which leads to the story of broken relationships!

You can miss someone

and heal at the same time.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Burden.

Just because someone carries it well doesn’t mean it isn’t heavy.

You know the feeling of not being able to breathe because you feel something is putting pressure on your chest or choking you, draining the life out of you, didn’t it? Burden the closest answer to it. Regret and burden go hand in hand if you are not able to do something the regret of it will always be there in your heart which leads to a burden building up. Let me tell you feelings and emotions, know how to play with us when you are already feeling low then only those past burdens need to bloom and make you feel that you are at your worst, funny isn’t it? Another thing I learned is that you can control feelings or emotions when you stop caring about things, you become emotionless and nothing bothers you not only because you are used to it but also because the burden of carrying everything has become limitless. The things you don’t speak about, the things you don’t react to, the things that you want to do but are unable to do, the decisions people take on behalf of you, the people word’s that point out at you, and things that make you feel that you are the worst version of yourself is all the burden you carry in your heart that too forever. Speaking about things that no one asked for is not at all easy because the fear of them judging you makes you unable to speak. The mentality of one should not speak about their problems has led to a burden being piled up and after that, it is not at all easy to speak or lower the burden.

But I see and hear you. The one who is holding so much to themselves including me. A burden is something beyond our control because we can’t force ourselves on how we react to things and it takes a lot of time. However, if we try to speak about it or write about it, trust me it helps. If you ever feel like it’s getting too much and you have to share it so just write it down trust me it really helps. But I am there for you and will never judge you because I know how it feels:) Saying that letting it go is easier than actually doing it is very hard, however, try to focus on yourself, your need and your goals trust me because, in the end, it’s just you who need to push yourself up through the burden.

A heart’s a heavy burden.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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My Beige Flags!

When something goes wrong in your life, just yell “PLOT TWIST” and move on.

I hate shopping to the core like literally I can’t stand it maybe because I have no interest in fashion as well as for me shopping is love at first sight when I will see something I love it at the first moment then it’s final I am going to buy that and I don’t even need to roam around the shop because I know I will not like anything.

I don’t like coffee at all, I prefer Masala Chai all the time. I drink coffee twice or not even once in a whole year. The time when I drink coffee is when I will visit my friend and she insists on having it that too once in a while I say yes.

I am not at all a sweet tooth maybe because I am an Asian and come from a country where we love species so maybe that is why I don’t prefer sweets. If I have to eat sweets then I will choose my country’s traditional sweet dishes, they are too delicious to make me forget about having a sweet tooth.

Books >>> Movies. Yes, I don’t like watching movies because I can’t stay still for a second so sitting for a two-hour movie I just can’t do it. But for books, I will just lay and read for a couple more years;)

I have my own fictional world and I don’t even realize when I am transmitting there and it happens a lot when I am surrounded by many people;)

I don’t like change in terms of food, clothing, surroundings, and many other things, I just want to stick to the basics. I want to try different things, however, it’s just my mind that doesn’t allow it.

I just read Lifesfinewhine’s post about her Beige Flags and I loved it. So I decided to write mine as well and share it with you all. Hope you all enjoyed it. Don’t forget to check her post as well by clicking here.

Where’s my oscar for acting like everything is fine.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Scared.

That move you are scared to make might just be the one.

Tell me honestly how many of you are scared of your own feeling and thoughts that made you stop taking steps in your life. I am one of them because of my insecurities and my fear of making the wrong decision because as many people say, life does not always give you a second chance. After all, moving on is not at all easy. Feeling scared before and after taking a big decision is a part of my dictionary because of how uncertain I am with myself and not being able to believe in myself leads to this but only for a small time. I have realized that in the beginning I always let my insecurities and my fear take over control especially when I am starting a new chapter in my life but it’s totally normal it’s a human tendency to do it because it takes our mind to adjust to new things to new pressure which makes us scared. Let me tell you that if something big happened that made people scared to do it again or to move forward is not at all easy, to begin with. But this life we are living at the moment is playing hide and seek with us every second it will scare us and challenge us to move forward and that is where we have to be brave and try to tell ourselves that being scared will lead was nowhere that is why we have to be brave and let me tell you after being scared when you get the courage to move forward will lead to another level of satisfaction for yourself trust me. It’s okay to be afraid of never let your mind makes you feel guilty about it just remember to not let fear control it calmly find out the way and slowly move to clear the path for yourself. Taking chances is always scary but there is something more scary that one should fear missing out on the beautiful chances you will get by taking the chance just because you are scared.

If it excites you and scares you at the same time, it probably means you should do it.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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I’m Happy! (My Two Year Blog Anniversary)

The surprise is that I wrote a POEM for you all. A few days ago I decided to write a poem for the two-year anniversary of my blog and then only I wrote a poem of just four lines because I just can’t think anymore and please don’t judge me. Then this morning I opened the book and wrote one more without correcting anything that too in one go and I am feeling so proud of myself and it’s all thanks to you guys. Let me present to you guys the poem written by me.

TO THIS

When did I grow,

From writing on paper,

And keeping my thoughts to myself,

TO THIS.

When did I change,

From self-doubting myself,

And afraid to start,

TO THIS.

My mind was clogged,

from the confusion that I myself created,

My heart was full,

by keeping so much to myself,

If I didn’t take the first step,

two years back,

I won’t be able to come,

TO THIS.

Two years back on the same day, I wrote my first ever blog post and it was something that I always wanted to do and finally I did it. My feelings right now are all over the place, to be honest, it’s really a long period for me two years doesn’t feel like yesterday but a whole decade because apart from posting here I did so many other things that made me grow and made me realize my career path. I started everything on this day so yeah it felt such a long time for me. I was always confused and afraid about my career however when I started blogging so many things opened up to me and the air of confusion cleared up in my mind.

THANK YOU SO MUCH for landing on my page and reading my posts. I wouldn’t be here if it weren’t for you guys. Thank you for holding the torch in my dark world, I hope I can do the same for you all. A big hug of hope, happiness, gratitude, and every feeling that you need from me to you all. If you are afraid to take the first step just do it and make yourself proud. Again THANK YOU SO MUCH.

this chapter feels really good.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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What if?

What if life isn’t happening

to you…

What if life is happening

for you?

Rachel Hollis.

Nowadays we live our life on what if this and what if that. Every single time we want to take any step we have so many questions and a list of what if and it never ends. It is rightly said that negative thoughts do have a very big control on us before taking any step so many negative thoughts surround us and then we find ourselves captured in those thoughts. But if we truly try to escape it we can actually do it, trust me because believing in yourself and moving forward is one of the biggest goals of life and negative thoughts do teach us that. The amount of what if the list is never ending because we just don’t let ourselves take a break we just continue to think what if in a negative way, the positive side that doesn’t appear just we just don’t let it. It is true that no man alive can tell you what the future is going to be and whether the decision you are taking is right or not and so many equations that you fear. However, we cannot let what if rules our life we have to take risks in order to experience the gain from them or learn from them because it will save us from the guilt of letting go of the chance.

What if the decision is wrong but what if the decision might not be wrong? What if all the struggles you are going through might be for your beautiful chapter ahead? What if it will work out in the end if it does not feel right now? What if who I become is what I needed the most all along? What if we accept the inevitable and lead towards the next step? What if today’s hard work leads to amazing things? What if you become the person you always dreamed about? What if you see your dream become a reality? And so many what if which truly help you to think positively whenever you think negatively just reverse it and try to think in a more non-negative way and trust me you will get all the solutions to what if?

What if

I CAN.

Till we meet again, Be happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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The Reality of Loss!

there will always be a tiny piece of my heart that silently breaks when I catch myself having fun.

You know it really sucks that there is so much you want to say yet you can’t it’s like some force has been used that you just can’t open your mouth and the frustration because of it makes you lose inside your mind and this is what I call it as the reality of loss. It is as bad as you think because nothing in this world can repay for the loss one goes through, not even themselves. No matter what people say or their motivation nothing worked out and that really sucks because nothing can cheer you up, it’s like finding a piece of sugar from a bag of salt which we all know is not possible. I just know what has happened it can’t be made right how much you try it will always haunt you in the back of your mind ALWAYS. Talks, people, and moments are some of the precious things that people have in their life and among them if something is lost it becomes a pain forever. No matter what people say if it but pain can never be forgotten and it can’t be made better, IT JUST CAN’T. I have learned that pain and loss don’t need solutions because in the first place they don’t even have them they are not exactly problems but a phase of life that can never be forgotten. If you see people happy that doesn’t mean that they are over with the loss because some loss can’t be cheered up and reality is far from it. I just know you don’t want people to give you a solution for it but acknowledge them telling you to cry, scream whatever makes you feel better you need people to see through your eyes about the feeling that you feel. It’s like you are alone sitting in a dark room and you don’t want people to open up the door for you because it’s you who have to do it you just need them to sit with you in a dark room and give you encouragement words to assure you that they are with you and give your the courage until you are ready to open up the room by yourself.

I know I know I missed two uploads because I am not feeling well for the past few days, it’s more emotional than physical feeling as I am dealing with it still a lot has to pass but in a few days I will be celebrating the second anniversary of my blog and I have prepared a little surprise for you all, hope that you will like it – a spoiler it’s my first attempt on it and I am eagerly waiting for your reactions.

imagine waking up in an alternate reality where everything is different and nothing looks familiar but you are still expected to function normally…

that’s how it feels

reality of loss.

Till we meet again, Be happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Thinking Difference…

“Meeting someone with the same mindset as you is rare.”

The generation gap is very dangerous because of how it leads to thinking differences between them and you. To be honest you can never force them to think like you but you have to give time to them to accept it. Because they and you come from a whole new generation gap where everything is so different and honestly it scares me a lot. Mostly among parents and children, there is a big generation gap and because of that it leads to a lot of thinking differences in what both parties exactly want. I have learned that thinking differently leads to a lot of trouble in choosing another step in your life, especially careerwise. My thoughts and my feelings about things are very different from other people of older generations obviously because they came from a whole other generation where things were a lot different and their parents had their own thinking which leads to thinking differences following generations. But what I have noticed is that nowadays the thinking difference era that has been going on for a long time is slowly fading. Thinking differences can be seen a lot in Asian countries from where I come it’s basically where from generation thoughts are transferred but it should not be like that because everyone is different and neither parents nor anyone knows the future. It’s just that everyone should have the right to have other thoughts of their own and people should not force their thinking on anyone else. Time changes and people might not change however they need to accept it slowly for the happiness of others and let all of us finish the thinking difference.

Think about things differently.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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An Adult Dream.

“Adulthood is like looking both ways before you cross the street and then getting hit by an airplane.”

In the last post, I said that life is a rollercoaster that we don’t want to ride but we had to because we have no choice other than that. Considering how so many people have different reactions while sitting or having thought about riding the rollercoaster some hate it while others love experiencing it however that few-second ride makes the person feel all the emotions so much that too at once. When we were teenagers we had dreams of getting good marks, making good lifetime friends, having good relationships with family, and getting into a good university. However, the second you enter your adult life everything changes from thoughts, feelings, expectations, and even body. Being an adult is so hard because people expect us to behave like the obedient ones who know what they are doing but in reality, we are far from it. There is so much difference in being an adult, your whole dreams change, and your whole way of thinking changes from what you thought in your teenage dreams. As an adult your list of dreams is not having good marks but satisfying yourself, making your sanity a priority rather than trying to maintain relationships, having a small group of friends or even one real friend, and finding out what we actually want and what actually makes us happy. When you see the difference between adult dreams and teenage dreams you can see that in teenage life we try to keep up with others’ expectations and focus on more materialistic things, however, in adult life, we truly get to understand that nothing matters as much as ourselves and that is why we focus more on realistic things. But the funny and sad thing is that adult dreams are way harder to achieve because the most important thing that includes is feeling which we can’t control. I just know that whatever I want to do I just want to be happy but being an adult and trying to be just happy is so hard as well. I saw this quote somewhere “Be the adult that you needed as a child” and it truly changes my whole perspective and helps me know and achieve my adult dream.

The level-up is about improving, not impressing.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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A Teenage Dream.

those teenagers who sit in their rooms at night cry themselves to sleep were once children with light in their eyes and hope in their heart.

How wired is it that everyone looks forwards towards teenage life and has so many teenage dreams but when we actually get to live it the expectations versus reality really strikes us. Yesterday I was listening to Teenage Dreams – by Stephen Dawes and at that point, I know I need to write about it. Even though there are so many languages in this world and each person living know or understand at least one of them however never ask a teenager how life is going because no language can describe it as it’s all about feelings that are always left unheard. To be honest teenage period is the middle part where one goes from without knowing and understanding life to getting ready to deal with all of them at once. In childhood, we never really get the taste of what actually life is whereas in the teenage period where everything starts to make sense and we get to see the trailer and finally the legal life where life truly shows what life exactly is. When people say that surviving in teenage life is harder, it is because what you will do in that period truly plays a crucial role in your future. I have noticed and felt as well that the teenage period truly makes you feel all the worst feelings in this world from getting to see that except you everyone else is going great, surrounded by a good family, and going on trips where else on the other hand there is nothing but stress and wanting to do better not for yourself but for others.

To be honest teenage period shows a whole new perspective to us and this time is where people dream so much to achieve once they reach adulthood. Adolescent dreams are all about getting good marks, surviving high school, making new friends, creating a stronger bond with family, creating lifelong friends and memories, and just enjoying the vibe it gives to us. If you are a teenager and fighting to get your life together let me tell you to dream as much as you want and just enjoy the life of that period because trust me ahead it’s all a roller coaster that you never wanted to go on but you had to.

“It takes courage to grow up and become who you really are.”

E.E. Cummings.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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