Dear My Past Self!

Dear My Past Self,

I forgive you. You were young and you didn’t know any better. But you were never wrong. I’m sorry I was too harsh on you, I’m sorry that I did not believe in you, I’m sorry I always doubted you, and I’m sorry for saying you can’t do any better. You were doing your very best and I know you did lose but it is OK, I can guarantee you, we will be doing okay in the future, don’t worry. Now you’ve grown, you know better, and you’ll do better so rest assured my dear, I forgive you.

— Your Future Self

There is a reason why I keep it all inside because I have “Only Me” to listen to my words.

I never thought how much I owe to my future self. Our past is indeed the reason for where we are now. To succeed in the future we have to go through failure not because we are not capable of succeeding at first but because failure is the key to making us the strongest person in the room. You deserve everything and the past plays an important role in that. For wanting to watch the breathtaking sunrise we need to hike miles through rocky mountain roads but in the end, it is all worth it. But it is you who decides that you want to watch that sunrise so you climb that rocky mountain because you know in the end it will be all worth it. Same with life to achieve success you need to go through rocky phases in the past to be able to get a deserved future. I know the mistakes, disappointments, failures, all negative feelings are not easy to deal with but aren’t those feelings that make you the strongest, that make you the toughest, and that make you fight for your dreams. Don’t try to compare yourself with your old self that was your version where you were learning a lot and mistakes were meant to happen. And your new version will be the version of new growth, new learning, and new mistakes and that is okay. What is important is the “actual you,” don’t lose it because life is diverse, it will change and you will also see a lot of your versions but be true to yourself. Learn to live a life that makes you feel happy like a leaf on a windy day that is flowing but still rooted to its stem.

To heal a wound, you need to stop touching it.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Taare Zameen Par (Stars on the Earth)

“If you want to win competitions, then breed racehorses dammit, don’t have kids!”

Taare Zameen Par, the Indian movie released in 2007, has so much in it that I get goosebumps every time I watch it. I was too young when I watched the movie but still, I remember how much it reflects our society. Ishaan is a young boy with dyslexia and his older brother is a genius. And Ishaan’s father has the same expectations from both but only one can fulfill them. He fails to understand not every child is the same even when they have the same blood running. Ishaan’s father always shows anger at him because he can’t be like his older brother or other children. He can’t read or write, but rather than finding out why he is struggling, he accuses him of not doing enough. Ishaan was the boy who needed more love from his parents and equally, the assurance and acceptance he longed for. There is a scene in the movie, where he was roaming and saw a father with his toddler on his shoulder buying him a gola (an ice ball) and he was there just standing alone. The love and care that he deserves and wants from his father never began but only the series of disappointments he felt every single step in his life. Even his teacher could not understand him and he was sent to a hostel which he assumed was a place where parents send their children to punish. Ishaan was a genius in drawing but not in studies, his father labeled him lazy because learning what is written in the textbook is important. But then his teacher, Nikumbh understood and taught him how to write and read. And he was the one who understood him and that should be his parents. But again parents are so engaged in finding their children’s mistakes that they fail to see what mistakes they are committing. Nikumbh understood Ishaan because he also had dyslexia. One good teacher can change everything like Nikumbh did for Ishaan, but it’s hard to find that teacher.

My mother was my guide when we watched this movie. Apart from what I learned she explained to me so much. She told me that not every child is the same and that is okay, every child is special but some have other specialities that this world calls names. Every parent who does not have a special child will never understand how much it takes for the child to grow up being loved not just by his parents but by the world as well. Why should a child expect love from others when their own parents do not care for them. Society is so harsh that until they don’t go through it, they won’t understand. Understanding a child is every parent’s job but not everyone can do it. Blaming the child is not an option; they do not choose to be born like that. Every child is special in their own way but not every parent can see this. If it is easy for the parents to point out their children’s mistakes then the world will do it anyway. Ending this by saying that every child is a star on this earth (The literal meaning of the movie title).

There have been such gems amongst us who changed the course of the world because they could look at the world differently.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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A Random Midnight Thought…

Acceptance of what can’t change can actually change your whole life.

The most important thing I have learned in my life is that to succeed I need to accept and face my faults rather than make excuses to save myself and give myself false assurance. It is all about us, in the end, we can’t blame anyone else if it’s even their fault nothing is going to change anyway. Nobody will take responsibility for our life, we only have to take it and acceptance is vital. The hardest thing is to accept the inevitable and we know nothing will change it, it has happened but we need to accept it. I know myself and my faults but accepting that will highlight my insecurities I want to run away from. But I know somewhere that I need to accept it, it is a part of me and I am not perfect nor do I want to become one. I just need to see myself through all my flaws and accept all the faults I made but also it made me reach somewhere. If that fault had not happened maybe I would not be here sharing my words with the world. When I started blogging, I did a lot of research but never I doubted how I was going to do it and here I am. It is going to be three years of my blogging journey in 2 months, isn’t it crazy but it is said true when you are having fun, time flies. With blogging many good things came but before I made myself better I had accepted the inevitable of my life that I can’t change.

It takes a lot of courage to accept the fault but it is the way to move ahead. Failure is not a bad thing but a thing that will play a role in shaping your dreams and life because through unright ways we reach unexpected destinations. You are doing great and don’t shy away from your failure keep the courage to accept it maybe it might open doors to things that you always longed for or things that you never knew you needed.  

This comeback is personal, it’s apology to myself.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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MOM…LOVE…

“Always wish people well. Even when you let them go. Letting go never meant loving less. It just means you have chosen to love them from afar.”

Is it okay to love someone from afar rather than sacrificing oneself and staying close to that person? It was mother’s day recently and I saw so many posts about the contribution mom makes to a child’s love, but there is another side that needs to be looked upon. People are so lucky to have a mom who truly acts like a mom and the love that the child truly needs from mom. Moms are superheroes who survive a lot to bring a child into this world, but is every mom the same for every child? Does every child receive the love that they deserve from mom? Does every mom stand like a shield for the child? The answer that I will give is that it is okay to love your mom from afar. It is okay if you choose yourself rather than the societal norms about mothers. It is different for every child and mom in terms of the love they show and receive. It is okay if your love for your mom is different from others that you see on the internet. Nobody is wrong, it is the feelings and time that make everything different. If you are loving someone from afar and that makes you happy then it is okay don’t let anyone guilt trip you anyway, you know yourself the best. You are not wrong, you are just choosing yourself over anyone and that is okay because in the end you only have you.

You are lucky if you have a mom who truly deserves the title of best mom in the world. Please give them a hug and appreciate that they have tried everything so that they can hear Happy Mother’s Day from their children. It is not easy to take care of a child and give them the love that they truly deserve and the kids love their mom 9 months more than they love anybody. So all the moms out there, I know it’s hard but you are doing amazing and I hope the sacrifice you make today for your children will be fulfilled by seeing your child grow into a good human being.

Love from afar when needed.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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The Interpretation of The Society.

The biggest challenge of life is to be yourself in a world that is trying to make you like everyone else.

Growing up, studying, going to a good college, making friends, getting a high-paying job, owning an apartment and car, getting married and having children all before 30 is what a typical society’s interpretation looks like. Is life really about following the stereotypes that have been going on for a long time? And we have seen the result of it, haven’t we? Following the pattern of things that have already left a not-so-good inspiration in the world is pathetic right? Society expects from us so much that they are not able to achieve yet they force it on the passing generation. The interpretation of society is amusing, they don’t let us dream and if we dream they make us so afraid of achieving it and simply put us in the position of going with the life pattern that has already been set even though it brings so much trauma to us. I have learned a very important thing: if you want to do something extraordinary that doesn’t set with the society pattern then you also have to face the reality of life already set by the society. We want to do something challenging, something new that brings us joy but also be complacent with reality, it’s harsh but it’s true. It is so hard to find something that brings us joy and if we truly find it then we have to take the risk of achieving it and bringing out all the flaws that might drag us down. The hope and promise to the future self that amidst all the society’s interpretations you will always come back to me and find your way back home, back to yourself. The pressure of society goes away when you meet the right person, the person that is a reflection of you and you can just…be you.

“Talk to yourself like someone you love.” – Brene Brown.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Live a Little…

Fight for your fairytale.

Don’t you just sometimes want to sit in front of the ocean alone and just think about everything that is going on in your life? We all deserve a break in a beautiful place where our minds and hearts are at ease. It is so important to have days to shut down our brains and just relax in the moment. Till today I have realized that work and study are forever and the stress from both will be with us throughout our lives. However, amidst that we might miss the opportunity to live in the moment. We might think let’s finish work and then take a break but tell me how much of it is possible? None. The importance of taking a break is not talked about enough. Work makes people so exhausted that living life is like living in a machine that has already been set on auto mode. Being mentally exhausted is like zooming in on a random point that feels like it is suckling you in and there is nothing you can do to zoom out of it. People have so much stored in their minds other than work like the different talks, feelings that have left us strangled, the feelings and emotions that we can’t let out and it is eating us from inside. Life is meant to be like that. It is all about ups and downs, yes “Ups” means we all will have that moment when life feels like it is great, don’t be afraid of challenges they will at first break you but without even noticing it will also make you strong.

Live a little – live a day without worrying about what the next hour will bring you, live without thinking about the next second, live like your heart feels happy, live carelessly until an inner smile has not made up to your face. Life will hardly make you feel great but that does not mean you don’t have the right to live contentedly. Life is like a dark door but with cracks that allow light to pass through it so Live a Little.

Never regret anything that makes you smile.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Setbacks.

Do not pray for an easy life, pray for the strength to endure a difficult one.

Is it important to have days where you feel like you are getting nowhere? It is important to have days where you feel like a failure. Is it okay if you have a setback? The amount of time I have felt that my life and hard work are going absolutely nowhere is just insane. Life is so funny on one side they make you feel like you are in heaven’s bed and the next moment it throws you from the stairs to the road of hell. Even though many say that life is all about ups and downs nobody gives you the solution or assurance that everything will be alright. But this world will blame you for not working hard and not meeting the expectations of others. If you look at setbacks they test you till you are at the end of a dark hole, they never let you come back again easily. When people say that you truly understand what life is and what you are meant to do is when you are in the worst situation in your life. Your setbacks will make you feel that you are the worst to live and no positivity can reach out to you. Funny isn’t it? Then what is it that is supposed to reach out to us to pull out of the endless setbacks? The answers that you need to find yourself! If you are struck just think why you decided to do this and choose this irrespective of so many options and then there will be so many answers to it and maybe more questions for yourself and believe me, you will find the answers. It is said right that what we are truly looking for is within us just don’t let things like setbacks hold you back for things that you truly want. Embracing failure is the key to success because a person should know their weakness as they are the reason why setbacks can’t hold enough and you can break through them.

setbacks HAPPEN…go get it again

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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WOMEN.

“Behind every successful woman is

Herself.”

Women. What a powerful four-letter word that holds so much power within to face the world full of so much. I will say that looking up to a woman is such an empowering tool for many other women. Being a woman in this world is not a cup of tea, but we all are still standing with our heads high and ready to face challenges. Bleeding every month, carrying a child for nine months, giving birth, looking after yourself and your family, achieving dreams, being a good parent to the child, dealing with failure, bringing a shoulder for people, and an endless list of things that women have to do. Being a woman seriously gives you a different level of confidence when you start to look at yourself in a new light when you start to believe in yourself, and when you start to take your life and dreams seriously. You don’t know how powerful you are and I am here to tell you that you as a woman are the greatest gift to the world and never ever doubt yourself. Being a woman is not easy and you are already doing it, so I am so proud of you and you shall also be. You have your own glow that will most definitely shine just remove those things and feelings that keep you away from it. You are a shining star in the darkness that saves the world from being cold and a happy sun that brings warmth to the world. Don’t limit yourself, you will truly know your limit when you will go beyond the imagination of what you can really do. Also, when a woman supports another woman, it is the most beautiful thing to exist in this world as we rise by lifting others. Let me tell you that you deserve the world and you are the only one who can give that to yourself so fight for yourself and show yourself how much you love being a WOMAN!

Happy Women’s Day to all my wonderful and strong women who have such an incredible aura like a queen on the throne. You are the best and nothing can change it:)

Real queens fix each other’s crown.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Feeling like a FaILuRe tOdAY…

Everything I was afraid

of happening, happened.

Nothing is working out, until yesterday everything was going fine I thought I was on the right track and with time everything would settle but here I am today writing this blog post about the feelings haunting me day and night. I do know I was always the person who did so much yet never received the success that I dreamed about Alas! After all, I might reach somewhere but it only takes a day to make me feel that I am standing in the same place or maybe I have dropped more. The feeling of failure is the worst after doing so much yet you still failed, I failed and the funny thing is that it hurts so much yet you can’t do anything about it, it makes you look like a loser in front of YOU. What answers to provide to others when you can’t even give yourself one. I don’t know why it is so hard to accomplish things that you are good at, I don’t know why things never work out, I don’t know why nobody is ever satisfied, and I don’t know when the hurt will ever heal or it will pierce every dreams and ambitions like glass pieces shatter everywhere. What is worse is that all the hard work, all the sleepless nights, all the expectations, all the dreams just never seem to be fulfilled, and yes I am in that place. My age is increasing and I am still standing at the same place with nothing in my hand yet I can’t do anything about it. Tears want to drop but not a single drop left as my inside feels like a desert barren land empty where nothing is visible. I am lost and everywhere I see myself looking tired and hollow like a failure.

The user is mentally exhausted.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Oh, I Love Being A Morning Person!

Let me adjust my crown and get my day started.

It might be shocking to the people that morning people do exist. I have come across many posts saying that now waking up has become a joke to them. To be honest, all thanks to my mother because she was always very strict with me about sleeping early and waking up early and of course school. I never liked missing school, obviously for friends. Even though I stayed up late, I still love to wake up early in the morning if my morning is late that means my whole day will be wasted as I will be so tired. I remember the time when I used to have a good and long sleep at night but I used to wake up tired. So my father explained that anything more than we need will only destroy us. I don’t know what really makes me happy about mornings but I can say that I get more time to do things without being lazy. I remember when I finished one of my important exams I remember reading every book available on Wattpad and even ignoring my friend’s messages that they had to call and check if I was okay. Pretty old days when you just had to think about exams and once it’s finished you could enjoy until the next semester. Can’t believe that being an adult means dealing with so many things simultaneously. Exams are not even finished yet we still have to think about our next step or pending assignments that are just piling up it does not seem that we are completing anything because work never finishes, it just fills the place that gets vacant by the old work ‘Sigh.’ Every morning is like a ray of hope where everyone is sleeping. Yet, you are awake to find how beautiful the world is and just seeing the birds fly, the sky waking up, the sun rising, and quiet amidst the world’s chaos. You get to just forget your problem and breathe in the air that surrounds you because for you it’s just you, the world, and the sunrise that is eagerly waiting for your achievement and silently cheering up on you, Oh, I love being a MORNING PERSON!

Today I will be a ray of freaking sunshine.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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