Scared.

That move you are scared to make might just be the one.

Tell me honestly how many of you are scared of your own feeling and thoughts that made you stop taking steps in your life. I am one of them because of my insecurities and my fear of making the wrong decision because as many people say, life does not always give you a second chance. After all, moving on is not at all easy. Feeling scared before and after taking a big decision is a part of my dictionary because of how uncertain I am with myself and not being able to believe in myself leads to this but only for a small time. I have realized that in the beginning I always let my insecurities and my fear take over control especially when I am starting a new chapter in my life but it’s totally normal it’s a human tendency to do it because it takes our mind to adjust to new things to new pressure which makes us scared. Let me tell you that if something big happened that made people scared to do it again or to move forward is not at all easy, to begin with. But this life we are living at the moment is playing hide and seek with us every second it will scare us and challenge us to move forward and that is where we have to be brave and try to tell ourselves that being scared will lead was nowhere that is why we have to be brave and let me tell you after being scared when you get the courage to move forward will lead to another level of satisfaction for yourself trust me. It’s okay to be afraid of never let your mind makes you feel guilty about it just remember to not let fear control it calmly find out the way and slowly move to clear the path for yourself. Taking chances is always scary but there is something more scary that one should fear missing out on the beautiful chances you will get by taking the chance just because you are scared.

If it excites you and scares you at the same time, it probably means you should do it.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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I’m Happy! (My Two Year Blog Anniversary)

The surprise is that I wrote a POEM for you all. A few days ago I decided to write a poem for the two-year anniversary of my blog and then only I wrote a poem of just four lines because I just can’t think anymore and please don’t judge me. Then this morning I opened the book and wrote one more without correcting anything that too in one go and I am feeling so proud of myself and it’s all thanks to you guys. Let me present to you guys the poem written by me.

TO THIS

When did I grow,

From writing on paper,

And keeping my thoughts to myself,

TO THIS.

When did I change,

From self-doubting myself,

And afraid to start,

TO THIS.

My mind was clogged,

from the confusion that I myself created,

My heart was full,

by keeping so much to myself,

If I didn’t take the first step,

two years back,

I won’t be able to come,

TO THIS.

Two years back on the same day, I wrote my first ever blog post and it was something that I always wanted to do and finally I did it. My feelings right now are all over the place, to be honest, it’s really a long period for me two years doesn’t feel like yesterday but a whole decade because apart from posting here I did so many other things that made me grow and made me realize my career path. I started everything on this day so yeah it felt such a long time for me. I was always confused and afraid about my career however when I started blogging so many things opened up to me and the air of confusion cleared up in my mind.

THANK YOU SO MUCH for landing on my page and reading my posts. I wouldn’t be here if it weren’t for you guys. Thank you for holding the torch in my dark world, I hope I can do the same for you all. A big hug of hope, happiness, gratitude, and every feeling that you need from me to you all. If you are afraid to take the first step just do it and make yourself proud. Again THANK YOU SO MUCH.

this chapter feels really good.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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What if?

What if life isn’t happening

to you…

What if life is happening

for you?

Rachel Hollis.

Nowadays we live our life on what if this and what if that. Every single time we want to take any step we have so many questions and a list of what if and it never ends. It is rightly said that negative thoughts do have a very big control on us before taking any step so many negative thoughts surround us and then we find ourselves captured in those thoughts. But if we truly try to escape it we can actually do it, trust me because believing in yourself and moving forward is one of the biggest goals of life and negative thoughts do teach us that. The amount of what if the list is never ending because we just don’t let ourselves take a break we just continue to think what if in a negative way, the positive side that doesn’t appear just we just don’t let it. It is true that no man alive can tell you what the future is going to be and whether the decision you are taking is right or not and so many equations that you fear. However, we cannot let what if rules our life we have to take risks in order to experience the gain from them or learn from them because it will save us from the guilt of letting go of the chance.

What if the decision is wrong but what if the decision might not be wrong? What if all the struggles you are going through might be for your beautiful chapter ahead? What if it will work out in the end if it does not feel right now? What if who I become is what I needed the most all along? What if we accept the inevitable and lead towards the next step? What if today’s hard work leads to amazing things? What if you become the person you always dreamed about? What if you see your dream become a reality? And so many what if which truly help you to think positively whenever you think negatively just reverse it and try to think in a more non-negative way and trust me you will get all the solutions to what if?

What if

I CAN.

Till we meet again, Be happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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The Reality of Loss!

there will always be a tiny piece of my heart that silently breaks when I catch myself having fun.

You know it really sucks that there is so much you want to say yet you can’t it’s like some force has been used that you just can’t open your mouth and the frustration because of it makes you lose inside your mind and this is what I call it as the reality of loss. It is as bad as you think because nothing in this world can repay for the loss one goes through, not even themselves. No matter what people say or their motivation nothing worked out and that really sucks because nothing can cheer you up, it’s like finding a piece of sugar from a bag of salt which we all know is not possible. I just know what has happened it can’t be made right how much you try it will always haunt you in the back of your mind ALWAYS. Talks, people, and moments are some of the precious things that people have in their life and among them if something is lost it becomes a pain forever. No matter what people say if it but pain can never be forgotten and it can’t be made better, IT JUST CAN’T. I have learned that pain and loss don’t need solutions because in the first place they don’t even have them they are not exactly problems but a phase of life that can never be forgotten. If you see people happy that doesn’t mean that they are over with the loss because some loss can’t be cheered up and reality is far from it. I just know you don’t want people to give you a solution for it but acknowledge them telling you to cry, scream whatever makes you feel better you need people to see through your eyes about the feeling that you feel. It’s like you are alone sitting in a dark room and you don’t want people to open up the door for you because it’s you who have to do it you just need them to sit with you in a dark room and give you encouragement words to assure you that they are with you and give your the courage until you are ready to open up the room by yourself.

I know I know I missed two uploads because I am not feeling well for the past few days, it’s more emotional than physical feeling as I am dealing with it still a lot has to pass but in a few days I will be celebrating the second anniversary of my blog and I have prepared a little surprise for you all, hope that you will like it – a spoiler it’s my first attempt on it and I am eagerly waiting for your reactions.

imagine waking up in an alternate reality where everything is different and nothing looks familiar but you are still expected to function normally…

that’s how it feels

reality of loss.

Till we meet again, Be happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Thinking Difference…

“Meeting someone with the same mindset as you is rare.”

The generation gap is very dangerous because of how it leads to thinking differences between them and you. To be honest you can never force them to think like you but you have to give time to them to accept it. Because they and you come from a whole new generation gap where everything is so different and honestly it scares me a lot. Mostly among parents and children, there is a big generation gap and because of that it leads to a lot of thinking differences in what both parties exactly want. I have learned that thinking differently leads to a lot of trouble in choosing another step in your life, especially careerwise. My thoughts and my feelings about things are very different from other people of older generations obviously because they came from a whole other generation where things were a lot different and their parents had their own thinking which leads to thinking differences following generations. But what I have noticed is that nowadays the thinking difference era that has been going on for a long time is slowly fading. Thinking differences can be seen a lot in Asian countries from where I come it’s basically where from generation thoughts are transferred but it should not be like that because everyone is different and neither parents nor anyone knows the future. It’s just that everyone should have the right to have other thoughts of their own and people should not force their thinking on anyone else. Time changes and people might not change however they need to accept it slowly for the happiness of others and let all of us finish the thinking difference.

Think about things differently.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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An Adult Dream.

“Adulthood is like looking both ways before you cross the street and then getting hit by an airplane.”

In the last post, I said that life is a rollercoaster that we don’t want to ride but we had to because we have no choice other than that. Considering how so many people have different reactions while sitting or having thought about riding the rollercoaster some hate it while others love experiencing it however that few-second ride makes the person feel all the emotions so much that too at once. When we were teenagers we had dreams of getting good marks, making good lifetime friends, having good relationships with family, and getting into a good university. However, the second you enter your adult life everything changes from thoughts, feelings, expectations, and even body. Being an adult is so hard because people expect us to behave like the obedient ones who know what they are doing but in reality, we are far from it. There is so much difference in being an adult, your whole dreams change, and your whole way of thinking changes from what you thought in your teenage dreams. As an adult your list of dreams is not having good marks but satisfying yourself, making your sanity a priority rather than trying to maintain relationships, having a small group of friends or even one real friend, and finding out what we actually want and what actually makes us happy. When you see the difference between adult dreams and teenage dreams you can see that in teenage life we try to keep up with others’ expectations and focus on more materialistic things, however, in adult life, we truly get to understand that nothing matters as much as ourselves and that is why we focus more on realistic things. But the funny and sad thing is that adult dreams are way harder to achieve because the most important thing that includes is feeling which we can’t control. I just know that whatever I want to do I just want to be happy but being an adult and trying to be just happy is so hard as well. I saw this quote somewhere “Be the adult that you needed as a child” and it truly changes my whole perspective and helps me know and achieve my adult dream.

The level-up is about improving, not impressing.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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A Teenage Dream.

those teenagers who sit in their rooms at night cry themselves to sleep were once children with light in their eyes and hope in their heart.

How wired is it that everyone looks forwards towards teenage life and has so many teenage dreams but when we actually get to live it the expectations versus reality really strikes us. Yesterday I was listening to Teenage Dreams – by Stephen Dawes and at that point, I know I need to write about it. Even though there are so many languages in this world and each person living know or understand at least one of them however never ask a teenager how life is going because no language can describe it as it’s all about feelings that are always left unheard. To be honest teenage period is the middle part where one goes from without knowing and understanding life to getting ready to deal with all of them at once. In childhood, we never really get the taste of what actually life is whereas in the teenage period where everything starts to make sense and we get to see the trailer and finally the legal life where life truly shows what life exactly is. When people say that surviving in teenage life is harder, it is because what you will do in that period truly plays a crucial role in your future. I have noticed and felt as well that the teenage period truly makes you feel all the worst feelings in this world from getting to see that except you everyone else is going great, surrounded by a good family, and going on trips where else on the other hand there is nothing but stress and wanting to do better not for yourself but for others.

To be honest teenage period shows a whole new perspective to us and this time is where people dream so much to achieve once they reach adulthood. Adolescent dreams are all about getting good marks, surviving high school, making new friends, creating a stronger bond with family, creating lifelong friends and memories, and just enjoying the vibe it gives to us. If you are a teenager and fighting to get your life together let me tell you to dream as much as you want and just enjoy the life of that period because trust me ahead it’s all a roller coaster that you never wanted to go on but you had to.

“It takes courage to grow up and become who you really are.”

E.E. Cummings.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Work on You…For You!

I learned a long time ago the wisest thing I can do is be by my own side.

Out of many things, I have learned, the most important among them is that only I, ME, and MYSELF matter. What I want to do I have to do by myself and that will only happen when I will know myself more better than anyone else. You all remember what someone asks us about ourselves we hesitate to answer because we don’t exactly know what to say, maybe because we don’t know ourselves. We work so much in our lives for other people but what about us? To be honest when people ask what kind of superpower I want and I would proudly say that I want to go back in time as there are so many reasons why and one of them is because in what field I am I never wanted to do that as I wanted to do something else and even though people say it’s okay now also you are doing great but that regret will always be in my heart and mind that why I didn’t choose myself just WHY. Nobody is and will be there when suddenly in the middle of the night I get the thought that I wish I could be that or when I see some other person being in the same place I wish to be nobody can do anything to throw away my thoughts about that. But now I understand that I need to work for it and fight for it for myself because I can’t let anybody else decide about the future that I am going to live in. Just focus on yourself and work on yourself for a better present and future. Let the past go and people who stop you and become a hinder in your life working on yourself your mental health and happiness matter above anything. Let go of the things, people, and thoughts that don’t contribute to your goal, you have to work for yourself, you have to get up and make a move for you to be successful and you will only get what you want if you work for it so work on you…for you.

I’m working

on myself

for myself

by myself.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Self-Acceptance!

you carry so much love in your heart give some to yourself.

The entire life we spent trying to get acceptance from others because we don’t know at that time what self-acceptance means or we don’t want to learn about it. It’s so hard to love ourselves and to accept ourselves because in our life we meet so many people who hinder our acceptance to accept ourselves. There are so many people residing in this world and if we will start to live our life according to them and want to get their acceptance then this life is not ours and there is no meaning to it. Just remember you don’t need others’ approval or affection to be good enough, you don’t need them to tell you to do this and do that you are more than capable for yourself. And the most important thing is if someone rejects you and doesn’t like you, IT’S NOT BECAUSE OF YOU, IT’S BECAUSE OF THEM. They have their own insecurities and their own limitations that they can’t accept and don’t let others do so as well. The moment will realize that you don’t need anyone’s acceptance to accept yourself you just need YOU, your worth doesn’t depend upon other people’s acceptance of you. You matter because you exist to live your life however you want, you are allowed to have your own feelings, to love yourself, to accept your own flaws, and so many things that make you accept yourself the way you are. Every human being is born with their own flaws and when we see people walking with confidence is not because they are flawless because they accepted themselves the way they are, and if you accept yourself you will not find anybody pointing out to you because you will not give a damn as you have accepted yourself the way you are, your all the flaws matter because rawness and realness shine from within you. And you are allowed to remove people from your life if you want who make you feel otherwise because there is nothing more important than Self-Acceptance.

Beauty begins the moment you decide to be yourself.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Inner Peace!

Create a safe place within yourself that no one will ever find, somewhere the madness of this world can never touch.

Christy Ann Martine.

Life is way better when we don’t understand anything, life is way better when nothing makes sense, and life is way better when we don’t know the meaning of life. To be honest, the feeling is something that I am very scared of because even though something might happen very good in my life then too my heart is not that happy and I don’t even know why I shouldn’t feel happy about it because feeling of mine is always so messed up. It’s so hard to understand your feelings, and the emotions you are going through are not at all easy to understand your mind and heart both play a lot of things with you maybe your mind feels something else and your heart something else and at that moment you don’t know what to do. And that is why inner peace is so important, it is true when people say that having not too much is good unless it brings you peace in everything. What exactly is inner peace, you may ask? It’s that where you don’t allow outside things to control your emotion and your feelings. Controlling emotions is very hard however we need to learn how to do that for our sanity and our inner peace. And you may ask how? It’s not that simple because today’s everything is cheap but having peace, especially inner peace, is very expensive. We need to make ourselves understand that for us to properly focus on our goal we need to let go of outer things that take up our sanity. We need to prioritize ourselves and tell ourselves it should not matter to us, and that we don’t need to waste our energy which only destroys our inner peace. There is no better place for us them within us, we need to create a safe place in our mind where whenever we want we can discharge ourselves and because of others don’t let our inner peace get destroyed. I hope you get your new success in the form of inner peace.

Do not let the actions and chaos of other people destroy your inner peace.

Till we meet again, Be happy, Be Grateful, and keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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