Lost a version of myself

Maybe losing is a disguise to slow down life and truly live in it. – M A

Nobody talks about that, as you become an adult, you also lose a past version of yourself, a version that you never wanted to lose. We always thought that as we grow older, things would get better, but nobody talks about the battle with life, how much we have to work hard to overcome our insecurities to see the lessons from our failures, and whether we are going to make life better or not. At this point in my life, when I look back, I’ve lost a version of myself, a version that never overthinked about life that was really optimistic in whatever she wanted to do, but after seeing and going through the struggles, every time in my mind it goes through that I have become a version where I’ve lost the spark, the spark that people feel when they accomplish big, the spark that people feel after getting into their dream college. Even though I’ve been through all of those pages, that spark is what is missing. I am at that place in my life where things are moving way too fast, and I’m getting overwhelmed. I feel like we are moving so fast in every step of our lives, before we even appreciate where we are right now, we need to move on to achieve greater things. Time is moving so fast, which has also contributed to losing the excitement, because we truly are not living in the moment, but running a race. We have become like robots. Maybe we expect so much from life that at a certain point, when we reach a step, we are so exhausted that we become so dull, so that it takes time to get our sparks back. And then that version doesn’t exist anymore. I feel like we really need to take time and reflect on what we have in our lives right now, and enjoy what truly makes us happy and brings a spark in our eyes, rather than see a lost version…

The girl and her lost version…

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write

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It’s been 4 years of Blogging.

admire your own progress; it took everything to get here

14th July 2025

Time really went fast because I didn’t even realise that it’s been 4 years since I started blogging. I feel like I just wrote my 3-year blogging post, and here I am again. In last year’s anniversary post, I wrote about what the next year would bring, and yet here I am again to express what I learned and what happened this year. A lot happened when I say a lot, I mean a lot because I never saw myself doing those things, but I did it and I am so proud of myself. I started writing reviews, completed another significant academic milestone, took on numerous challenges, and simply became a better person. I was never the confident kid; I was always a shy one who didn’t know how to answer people or stand up for myself. But after blogging, I have come to such a better place, and all of these are because of myself only. I can proudly say that I alone did everything, learned everything and believed in myself. This year was full of challenges, and the age I turned made me realise how fast time is going and yet I have to do so much. I am so grateful for what I have achieved till now. I have seen myself grow in a better way. The younger me would be so proud if she were to see me right now. I feel so lucky because I found something that I love to do and have been doing it for so long. Blogging made my life better, as I could feel how much I am starting to appreciate myself, taking up challenges I never thought I could even do, and that’s what matters, right? So this is your sign, do whatever you want. At first, it might not be perfect, but you can’t become perfect until you do it every day.

When I started blogging, I just did it for fun however, at this point I have been so consistent with posting that I have not missed a single post even when my life was and is so hectic. Beacause I love blogging and I love connecting with you all, blogging never made me feel burden and that’s the most proud I am of. A big thank you to myself, I am glad I did not give up, no matter what, I posted, and truly started to learn to do what I love.

And lastly, I want to thank each one of you who landed on my page and gave a shot to read, like, comment and subscribe. I am so grateful that this is a girl who likes to write, a mere page has gotten so much love. I pray that you all receive the best of the best. I am always cheering for you all, and please believe in yourself; you are doing your absolute best.

Here to make everything better, everything you manifested, and all the blessings quietly waiting on their way to you.

Previous year anniversary posts – 1, 2 & 3

My first ever blog post – Click here

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write

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Stop waiting to feel ready!

Action cures fear. Move before you feel ready.

I have been in that stage of my life where I am ready to take up the biggest challenge of my life and go ahead with it like a job. And I am a person who is ready to do a job, but when the opportunity comes, I get so afraid and insecure that will I be able to do the job? And when I start, give it some time, I feel better. Adulthood is really hard because we are constantly upgrading ourselves, learning new things, and in that, we come across a lot of challenges. However, from my personal experiences, you will never feel ready. There will never be a moment where you will feel that from tomorrow I am going to do it, no, you need to show up and then only you are going to do it. Life is all about challenges; you have to take the first step, you have to show up. That’s the biggest thing I learned: there will be no realisation before I do anything, it will only happen after I do it. Because feeling ready is not a sudden emotion, it’s a practical aspect of life, and you need to be practical about it. Feeling ready is a decision you need to make. The first few moments will be uncomfortable; however, as you show up, things will get better, and you will feel like you were born ready. It’s all about your mindset, no matter what people say, if you are ready, make the decision to do things right in your life, it will happen, slowly, but you will feel the progress. Believe in yourself and your knowledge, it’s all going to be alright, and it’s all up to you. Don’t wait to feel ready; if you know you can do it, then take up the opportunity and go for it. That’s how you learn by trusting yourself and believing in your skills, so go for it and stop waiting to feel ready!

Stop waiting to feel ready. Ready is not a feeling. It’s a decision.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write

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It’s never enough…

“Nothing will knock you down quicker than offering the best of yourself to someone and it still not being good enough.” – M.W Poetry.

It’s never enough how much you do for others; they will still want more. They will still complain about how ungrateful you are and not enough. In this world, you need to understand that it’s never enough to impress people; if they have already made up their minds about you, they will never see your effort, no matter what you do. So learn to live for yourself, the society will never be happy, no matter what. The courage to stand up for yourself and do whatever you want doesn’t come easily. However, if you want to survive living in this world and want to create a place for yourself, then you need to focus on yourself. You only work for yourself, not for others. This is your life, so live it however you want should be your motto. You will get tired of impressing others, and amidst that, you will forget how to live for yourself. That is why you do whatever you want, regardless of what others say. It’s definitely not easy; however, you only live once, and this is your life, and you should always remember that for yourself and your future, you need to become selfish. The world will not even look in your direction when it’s their time, so just do it for yourself. I have learned that no matter how much you do, it is never enough. So it’s better to just focus on yourself and believe in yourself. Do whatever you want and don’t tell anyone about it. No one deserves to know what you are doing and why you are doing it. You should know that in this world, you are your only true self. Everyone else is just there to take advantage of you. Selfish people don’t have the guts to appreciate you when they see you are going ahead of them; they will demotivate you and show you it’s never enough, so leave those people behind and just trust yourself. You live for yourself only, and do whatever you want to do for yourself; you are what matters.

It sucks, doesn’t it? feeling like you’re not good enough, no matter how hard you try.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write

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I’m trying…

Nothing hurts more than trying your absolute best and still not being good enough.

When life gets overwhelming, I always question myself about what I am even doing. It’s not working, no matter how hard I try; I always lack somewhere. Why is it just me? Why? This question haunts me the most, and the answer to it is impossible to find. I think no matter how good you are doing, there is always a time in life when life feels so heavy and you are standing on the edge, not knowing what to do next. Recently, I have been too busy with life, a lot of things to do for my future and amidst that, I am also busy thinking, will it work out for me? If it didn’t, what am I going to do? It is not easy to choose a path, but it is also harder to leave the chosen path and start over again. I think no one gives us credit for how much we are trying, everyone wants to live a good life, wants to earn money, and fulfil their wants; however, it is not as easy as it seems. It takes a lot of effort, time, and battles to get there, but people don’t understand that. If we fail at something, they will say. Why can’t you do it? It was so easy. However, I have always said that no one knows how much you struggle, so saying is easy, but only you know how much you have tried and are trying. I’m trying, I really am. However, everyone only wants to see the result, and that too good. However, what about me trying, the efforts I am putting in, why is it not okay to fail sometimes, why is it not okay to try multiple times? Just why? Everyone is trying their best, and it’s okay to be slow, take time, and be on the path, confused. That doesn’t make you a failure or someone who is not trying. I’m trying is the first step towards your biggest achievement. No matter what others say, you are doing your very best. Keep it up!

I’m trying my best, I really am

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write

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Whatever happens, happens for a reason!

I believe. Everything happens for a reason.

I have always been someone who gets stuck at the weirdest point in my life, where I have so many things to do. And I do stress a lot about how I am going to do it, or I have to leave something behind and then regret basically making a choice. However, in all those situations, I have realised how doors get opened for me to navigate everything and not make a choice. Right now, I am in that situation, but yesterday everything worked out, making me so grateful that maybe it was my destiny to choose everything and do whatever I wanted without leaving anything behind. I have noticed that if I leave anything behind, the guilt is so bad, and it makes me wonder why I was not strong enough to do it. Maybe the result might be the same, but at least I tried. This makes me come to a realisation that whatever happens, happens for a reason, be it negative or positive. If life closes one door, that always means it will open another one in front of us unexpectedly. I am writing about my experience, which has always happened in my life. I get so afraid to take the challenges, and saying no seems easy, but when I actually do it makes me think how capable I am. If we look at life, it’s not a villain, but how we think about our life is what makes the difference. Whatever happens, happens for a reason. I always think about it like that, and it makes me feel so powerful about myself because I am taking on challenges and doing them no matter what the result is. If we take a situation that I think everyone has faced at least once in their life about how much we wanted something that didn’t work out and we feel like a failure but maybe there is something else that you were made for, just like I said it’s about our thinking that makes all the difference. So remember, whatever happens, happens for a reason!

Everything comes to you at the right time.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write

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There is no hero in the world except…

“Who cares, just do it.”

There is no hero in the world except yourself. It is very common for everyone to love a hero; however, if you want to become a hero in your life, you need to be a villain in everyone’s life because that’s how it works. I feel like the world makes us feel bad if we are selfish for ourselves, our needs and the future we want. If people like what you’re doing, they will be delighted, but maybe that’s not what you want. Maybe you want something else, and if the world doesn’t like it, they will show you as the villain. I still don’t understand why people can’t mind their own business. It’s the 21st century, people need to grow up. I am someone who wants to stay away from people’s business as much as possible because I am too busy to deal with my own. If you want to become the hero of your life, then you will most definitely become someone else’s villain, and that’s okay. We are in this world to live our lives, not to care what others think. If we start caring about what others think, then we will become villains in our story. But if you need to become a villain in others’ eyes at the cost of your happiness, do it because others won’t think twice before throwing you in the puddle. Be the hero of your own life, do whatever brings you happiness. I think living with the motto of creating the future for yourself, irrespective of what others say, is one of the strongest things a person can do for themselves. If you want to do it, just do it, the world is always going to say. It’s your life, and whatever you want, you need to earn that by being the hero, which might make you the villain in others’ eyes, but who cares? You only live once, and leave the people who make you feel that you are the villain in your own life. What matters to you, what makes sense to you, doesn’t mean it should make sense to the world. You need to be happy; that’s all that matters, and believe me, it’s going to be okay because there is no hero in the world except…

Everything is better when you decide you don’t care.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write

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It’s Okay…

It’s okay if all you did today was survive.

It’s okay if days are not going the way you want them to be. It’s okay if things are going great, and something happens, but it does not make you a failure. My life has been on a roll, I’m busy preparing for so many exams that I have a deadline this month which will decide my future, and today I cut my hand so badly that I’m recording to write this blog post. And guess what, my exam is in a week and I have injured my hand, which I’m supposed to write with. I was kind of panicking, but it’s okay, I am fine again. I am doing great, and I will be better very, very soon.  Life is like that, only it will test you at every step, and it comes so suddenly that we don’t know how to deal with it. But again, at this point in my life, where I have seen so much and been an adult for such a long time, I have learned that life works that way; it will test you, but we have to believe in ourselves. Just like happiness, there is sadness, and for the rainbow to be there, the storm has to come. After every difficulty, we definitely get to see the result; we just need to hang in there. I had the habit of always questioning myself if I didn’t accomplish something, I put such pressure on my mind and kept thinking about what went wrong, but later realised nothing was wrong, it’s just a phase of life which will go, I just need to believe in myself that I can do it. If I put pressure on myself and start questioning my existence, that world is going to do the same, and I’m not going to be okay. So let me tell you, it’s okay, you’re doing fine, one setback will not decide your future, but it’s your courage to pass through it that will. So hang in there, do what you love and remember to say this yourself when life gets a little hasty, it’s okay…

You are strong, but you are also tired, and that is okay.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write

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places hold memories

Life is a collection of memories.

I was passing by the places that I used to visit with my Mom, and it felt so nostalgic because of how different I was back then. And the sudden realisation hit me that places never change, they still hold memories; however, what changes are us, the humans. The things and the places we used to look at as a kid and now as an adult are the same, but what changed is us; our interpretation has changed. That’s why memories are so important, they bring us so much peace when we visit places where we have spent such a good time. I never really understood or knew until I visited the place, and then it hit me how much older I have become. The places I once visited with my mom are now places I visit alone, and I’m filled with so many thoughts. And just like that, we grow up, leave the places behind that were once our way to spend time, and now we are looking at places to escape the hectic life of adulthood. What is it like visiting the place after so many years and remembering the life we once lived, and now everything has changed? I think the places we used to visit in childhood will always be precious memories because we remember the phase, the smell, the clothes we were wearing, holding hands with our parents, doing weird poses, exploring everything new, and how our eyes used to go wide with excitement. And now, if we go back to the place we remember our innocence phase and how happy we were with no tension, just excitement to explore the place. When I visited the place a few days ago, I looked like a tourist as my eyes were wide and my heart felt heavy. How the time has changed, and I have grown up to be an adult. That’s how life is, we look back and realise that’s the best time we have spent, and I think that’s the whole point, we should create memories that one day we look back and see how happy we were, and there is no regret left behind of not spending time right. So all the adults out there, this time will not come back again, so make sure you try to enjoy it as much as you can.

and some memories never leave.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write

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And maybe we complicated life too much

“Life is really simple, but we insist on making it complicated.” – Confucius

As an adult, the most important thing that I have realised is that the situation might not be that complicated, but I make it more complicated. I think about it and wonder how I will do it, and every time I am overloaded with work, I get so frustrated that I start questioning my life, but it works out in the end. I handle everything by the end of the day. But that process of overthinking and questioning makes life complicated. In the era of social media, where we get to see people’s personal lives so closely that at one time we even wonder what kind of life they are living and what we are even doing. It is so easy to compare because we can see a huge difference however, I then remember that I have my own life too, which I can make the way I want. The life I want to have, I can have, but I complicate things so much that it makes me frustrated with life. The rule is simple: don’t complicate things in life. You are strong, and just like everything, you are going to be fine. And if it doesn’t work out, it’s okay, one setback doesn’t make you a failure, but it makes you get ready for the upcoming lesson. If something comes up unexpectedly, we always panic and don’t know how to solve it. When things are not going the way we want, when everything feels tough, and when life feels like a burden, we see ourselves break down and do not dare to move on. First of all, it’s okay, everyone feels it, but as we deal with it, we learn to handle those situations, we learn how to manage everything, and I think that’s the whole point. I am speaking from my experience, when we learn how to handle things under pressure, we become experts in dealing with things that life brings to us. You are doing ok, panic is not going to bring you anything, so sit back, relax and understand life is like that, maybe you need some time to figure it out, but you are going to do it exceptionally well. And maybe we complicate life so much that we don’t see how strong we are, and life is all about simple things.

Simplicity.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write

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