Live in the Present.

“Be where you are; otherwise you will miss your life.”

It is diabolical to think that we are all so busy thinking about the future that we forget to live in the present. The world has made it very clear that everyone has to work for the future, even if we have to give up our present or be sad. But why do we have to sacrifice our present for a time that has not even arrived? I always tell myself that everything in life is meant to be unpredictable, there are situations I can’t ignore and I need to accept the inevitable. I think the older I get the more I understand how much the present and its moments mean to me and it will only take a second to become the memories so I tell myself to enjoy it to the fullest. Because of overthinking, and fear about the future we miss out on the chances to live life in the present. The future is going to be okay but it has yet to arrive. But the present is in front of you, waiting for you to savour it, take the opportunity and live in the present moments. When the future arrives when things get tough to deal with at least you will have great memories and strength to fight. If you focus on the present, the future will unfold automatically. I have learned the hard way that crying over the past that is gone and being afraid of the future that is yet to arrive makes life more complicated and we try to ruin the present that is infront of us. Remember we can’t control our future no matter what, however, we have our present that is in our hands so why not take the opportunity to live in the present and make it beautiful? I have deeply realised that present moments are what I truly have, if I have to make my life beautiful and worth living then I need to live in the present.

Be present, be now, be here.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write

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24 Things I Learned in 2024!

  1. Appreciate yourself for whatever you do.
  2. Protect your peace even if it makes you give up on things or someone.
  3. It’s okay to do whatever you want, you have the right to live a life that most don’t understand.
  4. Take the decision and ask everyone if you want to make the wrong decision.
  5. Fear will stop you from living but life is all about living so take the risk.
  6. You can do anything you want if only you have focus.
  7. Keep your feelings private to yourself.
  8. It’s okay if life made a turn you didn’t expect, maybe it’s for your own good.
  9. It’s okay to cry, you are only human.
  10. Be grateful as much as you can.
  11. People question you about your decision but never see what choices you have.
  12. Don’t impress anyone but only yourself.
  13. No matter what you do, people will never be happy.
  14. What matters is that you showed up, you tried, and you tried hard. It’s okay if something didn’t happen the way you wanted.
  15. It’s okay to prioritize yourself, don’t let the guilt consume you for that.
  16. Things that you are avoiding have the magic that you are looking for.
  17. Take the first step—just do it. If you won’t do it now, you won’t do it ever.
  18. Life is not perfect and any decision you take will come with hardships at an unexpected time.
  19. Don’t be a people pleaser and too kind.
  20. Say NO if necessary and it’s a complete sentence you don’t need to justify yourself.
  21. Live in the present if you start caring too much about the future, you won’t be able to create memories and fully enjoy yourself.
  22. It’s okay sometimes to take a break and just do what makes you happy.
  23. Work on yourself, for yourself, you know yourself better than anyone else.
  24. And the most important one, if you can’t avoid the situation just put your airpods in and live like there is no one other than you.

This is officially my last post of 2024 and I am so grateful for this year. There were a lot of ups and downs however it was the year where I could feel happy from inside. In this year, I was consistent with my posts and that is one of my biggest achievements that I am proud of. I learned a lot but shed a lot of tears as well but it’s okay I survived. It’s okay if your dream has yet not been achieved, I know you tried hard and did not give up. I am so proud of you, leave 2024 year behind and let’s work hard for 2025.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write

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Shattered Dreams…

“Shattered dreams still have sharp edges.”

Imagine yourself at 80 sitting on the rocking chair and seeing the young generation at the place where you were once and suddenly someone questions you, what was your dream and did you fulfil it? How lucky will you be if you can answer yes but if it’s the opposite, it’s the heart-shattering voice you hear repeatedly. Having a dream is a privilege but this world is filled with inevitable things that stand between you and your dream. There are many regrets a person feels but not being able to fulfil the dreams because of others is the regret that will never let you go. It hurts my heart to write that maybe if I fought more I could be living my dream at the moment but here I am living someone else’s dreams. It will never let me go ever, be it at any age I will always come back at the moment where I knew I lost my dream and shattered heart that can’t be whole again. Once the dream is broken you move on there is nothing you can do except allow yourself to curse that is why it’s me who has to leave my dream, how much difference would my life be if I fought more, maybe I would have less regret to carry in my heart. What has shattered can’t be fixed, its pieces break into so many sharp edges and when you just breathe it pokes you so bad and at that moment you realize how life is so much of a failure, that you are unable to forget and forgive yourself of the dream you once had that shattered. The dreams never stop you are a dreamer you will keep on dreaming but the fear of reliving the moments of your shattered dreams comes like a wind in front of you. There is no going back from regret, you just need to learn to live with it and accept that maybe life would be so different if the dreams remain dreams, not shattered dreams…

“Not all dreams are meant to be fulfilled.” – M A

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write

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Review: ‘High School Frenemy’ Thai Drama (2024)

“The most important thing that I’m giving up.

It’s not school.

It’s you, Shin.” – Saint.

After seeing so many reels of this drama, I decided to give it a try and I went blind into it without knowing anything was it the best decision? Hell yeah! I am someone who hardly has dramas that are stuck in my mind otherwise I just watch it for fun. But if I watch a drama and it touches my heart and soul then it is game over for me, it will become my personality and I will never recover from that hangover ever. And this is what happened when I watched ‘High School Frenemy’ and OMG what a masterpiece. It is about Saint and Shin who used to be best friends in the past, however, an incident broke their friendship. Both belong to two different campuses but the administrator decides to combine both campuses which for many years hated each other. But now they will be sharing the same roof for the next school year. I didn’t know that it was a remake of School 2013, the Korean drama.

For me, friendship is the most important and valuable thing in my life. I think no love can top the friendship relationship. And this drama made me more empathetic and grateful towards my friends. The plot, the friendship, and the pure relationship between teacher and student were just beautiful to watch in this drama. I love the male lead when they are quiet and mysterious but actually, a beast inside that is what Saint is. Even though it is kind of a plot twist the second I saw him in the first episode I knew he was a wolf in sheep’s clothing. Saint, what can I say about him, he is such a character who would do anything for his friends, but he is also a flawed character who has made mistakes as a teenager. Sky who played the character of Saint, OMG has done such incredible acting, the way his eyes are always filled with guilt and regret. The way he acted so helpless because he wanted forgiveness, the way he delivered the dialogues, and the way he acted through his eyes made the drama and character more special.

Then we have Shin, he is just a pure character. In the beginning, you will meet Shin, you might not like him but his best friend, Saint did to him making his action totally understandable. Nani, who has played the character of Shin, what can I say about it? He has done such marvellous acting, and his eyes are the star of his character. He is just a pure character, so kind, and so forgivable. He went through so much pain but he was so selfless. I loved his character the most because being selfless is not easy and only strong people can do it like him.

“You must have changed for real.

But one’s true nature is unlikely to change.” – Shin.

Let’s talk about the friendship between them, OMG that is the star of the drama. The dialogue, the staring, and the longing between them were so powerful that they made me breathless. It is a bromance but there was something more powerful between them, and the chemistry was just off the chart. Having a friend who can do anything for each other, even die is what they were to each other. Saint taking a beating for Shin and telling him, he will protect him forever was just beautiful to watch. Shin making sure to be with Saint forever, their friendship is just amazing and pure. The conversation between them was a chef kiss. Did I sob when they mend their friendship? Did I not stop giggling? Did I want everyone to have a friend as their safe zone? A big yes. And let me tell you the secret, I have a best friend who is my personal diary, my trauma relief, and the friendship that I ever wanted, and I will be forever thankful for that girl.

Another star of the show is Chadjen. He was the cupid for Saint and Shin to recover their friendship. I adored him so much. Then we have the teacher Jan. She was the moment and the character of the drama. If only in real life we had teachers who understood us rather than judged us, this world would be so much better. Jan is so beautiful from inside and outside. Because of her, all the classmates became friends, and the war ended.

This drama will forever be in my mind and I will always have a wish to erase it again so that I can watch this drama again for the first time. The chemistry, the friendship, the lessons, and the understanding between teacher and student were top-notch. Everything in this drama was a chef kiss.

If you can take any one recommendation from me, please be it this one and thank me later.

“You don’t need to understand us if you already judge us.” – Saint.

My Rating: 10/10

Total Episodes: 16

Genre: Friendship, youth, drama

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Self-Betrayal

What betrayed me the most?

The soul within others that I trusted or the heart inside me?

It hurts so much when someone close to us betrays us most unexpectedly, however, some days ago I was lost in my thoughts and a sudden realization came to me, will I be able to forgive myself for self-betraying? I am at that point in my life where all the major decisions have been taken and now life is heading towards it. However, if you are following me for a while you might know many unexpected things have happened in my life, which might not be something I wanted. I always think that if I had fought more, my life would have been different. It is great to tell people that you are doing something you love because you feel happy from inside but when you see someone doing the job they love a part of your mind always cornered you for self-betraying. The thoughts always came at the most unexpected time and left me wondering what position I had put myself in. From childhood we are shown to put others’ needs in front of us but what about us? We learned that our needs are not important and we let others make decisions about our lives. The self-betrayal will always be there reminding us how life would be so different and continue to hurt. But I have started to acknowledge those feelings rather than running away, acceptance is the key and for me to heal, it is important. I will say don’t even lie to yourself, give time and if it’s hurting let it hurt until you are okay to see that there is another path waiting for you. Be patient with yourself, take it slow, let it be absorbed and take time to acknowledge the position you are in. Make boundaries around you, sometimes we overshare which is not good because certain thoughts should be kept to us, it’s ours. The scar will always remain but you are stronger to wear it like a crown.

Time has a wonderful way of showing us what really matters.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Having Hobbies…

A good hobby can dispel heartache and give zest to life.

When you become an adult you realize the importance of small things like having hobbies. At first, I used to think that being good at something is what you call a hobby and obviously, only a few people can have that, not me. I was not good at anything and never had any hobbies to be honest and never really realized the importance of it. But I was made to feel bad because I could not do something or be good at “as a child,” diabolical. Anyways look at the contrast when you are a child you need to be perfect at whatever you are doing like drawing but in adulthood you do things just to make yourself happy without caring about the perfection of it. Things that can make your heart at ease, things that make your inner soul happy, and things that bring your inner child out are what are called hobbies. Hobbies are meant to bring out your creativity, making you happy without caring about the result. I think hobbies are the only way humans do not care about the result. Having hobbies means enjoying, resting your mind, satisfying your inner soul, filling yourself with laughter, and making endless memories. Just like the smell of perfume brings you back in time, having hobbies brings back your happiness, laughter, and carefree time. As an adult things that bring some enjoyment in the hectic life are what we truly deserve and hobbies are for that. I think being able to just enjoy without the tension of how it will come out is really a matter that is slept upon. I look at hobbies as a recharge to get back to my hectic schedule otherwise I lose my mind just by doing the same thing. And being creative does not mean being exceptionally good at things but it means living a life but in a fun manner.

Do more things that bring you real and honest joy.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Book Review: Intermezzo by Sally Rooney

I hate myself because how could I not read from Sally Rooney until now? I have heard a lot of people say how intricate and different her books are and I decided to read her latest release Intermezzo. Let me tell you I was not at all disappointed by her, I admire this book so much. I just finished the book and wrote the review because I can’t hold back talking about how much I learned. So this book follows two brothers, a 32-year-old Peter and a 22-year-old Ivan, who had just lost their father. Peter is a lawyer, torn between two women he loves equally. Ivan, a chess prodigy, sees himself fall for a woman who is 14 years older than him. The book shows their life and how they are coping after their father’s death and also, the women in their life. It is said from three perspectives Peter, Ivan and Margaret.

First of all, let’s talk about the different things in the book. The highly controversial thing people hated was the absence of quotation marks in the dialogue. To be honest I did not know about this however I got used to it quickly. At first, it might be really hard but when I got used to it I loved the book. Sally very intelligently uses different writing techniques between Peter and Ivan’s chapters. In Peter’s chapters, the writing style is incomplete, choppy, and hard to understand while Ivan’s is straightforward, direct, and easy to understand. The book focuses on the grief of two brothers who do not share a great bond and after their father passed away how hard it was for them to connect.

Peter, his character might be my favourite and very hard to understand. He according to his brother is very social, good-looking, decisive, and a perfect person to live life. But in reality, from my perspective, Peter was a man who struggled a lot and never had anyone to share his feelings with because he was the oldest. Initially, it was hard for me to connect with Peter but as he opened up about his feelings, I sympathised with him. It is truly said that grief is that feeling that will never go away and a person who is grieving will fall in the big hole of regret and guilt. It was the same with Peter, first of all, he can’t seem to move on and let go of the situation that he is in. He is torn between two women and can’t let go of either of them because people in his life have made him confused.

Ivan is someone who lost his father at the age of 22 which is very early and he is the one who was closest to his father. Ivan is someone whose character is shown as rebellious and has a strong opinion about life. It is easy to understand Ivan because of his strong views and straightforwardness. The thing I would salute Sally for is that she has shown Ivan as a character who is young and prone to mistakes. His frustrations, fears, doubts, awkwardness and regrets felt so personal. I definitely connected with Ivan first because he thinks very intensely which is actually kind of scary. After all, being 22 and thinking so deeply about life is scariest.

The relationship between Peter and Ivan as brothers brings tears to my eyes. Ivan already created his thinking about Peter but in reality, he never asked Peter how he was doing in life. While Peter does not think before sharing his opinion on Ivan’s decision. I loved the confrontation scene that screamed that they were real brothers. I loved it when Ivan realised his mistakes and understood why Peter changed and apologised. Their relationship and this book taught me how awkward I am feeling, and how much I dislike someone but if I see someone I will always ask how they are doing.

I love books which show flawed characters because they’re highly relatable. It is a slow-paced book so if you want to read it you need to have an open mind and be ready to meet the flawed characters. I recommend this book at least once because it’s legit literary fiction that made me feel so many emotions and I loved every emotion I went through when I read.

Rating: 4.5/5

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Learning to appreciate small moments

you learn to appreciate the moment once you realise that the moment will always end.

Just a few days ago my exam result came and my feelings at that time are something I wanted to write about. So if you don’t know I have talked about my feelings a lot in the past year on my blog. And here I am again but with progress about how happy I am with my result, and I did not even once doubt myself. It means I am very happy with my result, I talked to my best friend about how since my result came I am just laughing happily and that means a lot to me. It makes me think that I have truly made progress in my life, I have learned to appreciate myself, and that makes me feel so energetic. As I have written previously, life is all about happiness and sadness it keeps on rotating, and it won’t stay still but as humans, we need to appreciate small things in life. I have learned to live in the moment because we know nothing lasts for a long time, especially happiness. But let me tell you that once you learn and reach the stage where you start to appreciate yourself more, you will be happy. I walk with the motto that if a thing brings you happiness even for a short time, just do it and feel that feeling because it will make you stronger to take the next step. Creating a moment of ease amidst the busy life and heavy expectation is something we all need. I never knew that a small thing would give me happiness, no matter how big or small, my heart felt at ease that is what I am happy about. I just want to share this and let you know that I am happy for you if you have made progress in your life and if you are still stuck don’t worry your guardian angel is just behind you pushing you forward, so all the best.

Life is short. Time is fast. No replay, no rewind. So enjoy every moment as it comes.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Stuck…

What if it doesn’t get easier like everybody says?

There are things you learn when you become an adult, things that nobody wants to learn but it happens. However, amidst that the most hurtful is when you see that life is going too far, everything is moving too fast and too suddenly. People around you are building their dreams, working their way to the future, you are seeing them in places where you are also supposed to be. Then you see yourself and realize that you are stuck with all the unmatched pieces of failed attempts to be something, and it hurts. When you see the hard work you have done, it brings you nothing but disappointment. When you see people of your age achieving great heights while you are standing at the bottom and seeing the strings of disappointments that have tied you to the ground. Life is so funny; it never misses showing how miserable you are in front of others. It shows you things that make up your list of disappointments. I have been in a place where I just thought they could but why I can’t, I was that child that lacked social skills and an aura of being a talked child. It is depressing to see people expect so much from a mere child who should be given the liberty to live freely rather than reaching expectations because adult life is all about getting stuck by numerous frustrations and disappointments. It is wild when you see that in the middle of the crowd, everyone is perfectly moving with their lives and then there is you whose steps just don’t move. You are drowning in your own self, failures, disappointment, and every possible word that screams you are not enough.

But then I remember that when you become an adult you realize that your competition is not with others but with yourself and even it hurts a lot seeing yourself stuck at a place but that doesn’t mean you can’t cut the strings. If you can’t find scissors then you have your teeth means it’s in you. Nobody can be you and that’s your power – memorize it for days when you are stuck.

Sometimes, we are stuck in the dark for so long, that we forget what light looks like, and what hope and love feel like.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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The feeling of let down

Sometimes it takes a good fall to really know where you stand.

Yes, it hurts when we are let down by people but you know what hurts more when we are let down by ourselves. The thing about humans that fascinated me and terrified me is how we are capable of feeling so many emotions at the same time. Sometimes we are happy with our efforts and sometimes those efforts make us feel that we didn’t do enough. Some days ago I was kind of in that place and I kept thinking about how much I could have done better. The feeling never leaves by the way you just learn to live with it, or more I can say that it haunts us forever. The feeling of letting down hurts so much that it makes you feel miserable about losing the power to do everything and that you can’t do anything right anymore. The negative energy that comes with it questions you at every step about your capability and strength.

However, I have learned that it will not last for a long time if I know how to overcome it. I have been in that place many times and I mostly read my blog post. This helps me remember that I am the same person who wrote the posts and I still have the power to continue what I love. As life goes up then down we need a certain darkness to properly see some holes of lights that are hidden in darkness in order to find the purpose again. So don’t let the feeling of letting down strike you hard and make you fall instead strike back hard. Make yourself remember that life can be the way you want only if you learn to fight back against the feeling of let down.

Take a deep breath and try all over again.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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