The Reality of Loss!

there will always be a tiny piece of my heart that silently breaks when I catch myself having fun.

You know it really sucks that there is so much you want to say yet you can’t it’s like some force has been used that you just can’t open your mouth and the frustration because of it makes you lose inside your mind and this is what I call it as the reality of loss. It is as bad as you think because nothing in this world can repay for the loss one goes through, not even themselves. No matter what people say or their motivation nothing worked out and that really sucks because nothing can cheer you up, it’s like finding a piece of sugar from a bag of salt which we all know is not possible. I just know what has happened it can’t be made right how much you try it will always haunt you in the back of your mind ALWAYS. Talks, people, and moments are some of the precious things that people have in their life and among them if something is lost it becomes a pain forever. No matter what people say if it but pain can never be forgotten and it can’t be made better, IT JUST CAN’T. I have learned that pain and loss don’t need solutions because in the first place they don’t even have them they are not exactly problems but a phase of life that can never be forgotten. If you see people happy that doesn’t mean that they are over with the loss because some loss can’t be cheered up and reality is far from it. I just know you don’t want people to give you a solution for it but acknowledge them telling you to cry, scream whatever makes you feel better you need people to see through your eyes about the feeling that you feel. It’s like you are alone sitting in a dark room and you don’t want people to open up the door for you because it’s you who have to do it you just need them to sit with you in a dark room and give you encouragement words to assure you that they are with you and give your the courage until you are ready to open up the room by yourself.

I know I know I missed two uploads because I am not feeling well for the past few days, it’s more emotional than physical feeling as I am dealing with it still a lot has to pass but in a few days I will be celebrating the second anniversary of my blog and I have prepared a little surprise for you all, hope that you will like it – a spoiler it’s my first attempt on it and I am eagerly waiting for your reactions.

imagine waking up in an alternate reality where everything is different and nothing looks familiar but you are still expected to function normally…

that’s how it feels

reality of loss.

Till we meet again, Be happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Thinking Difference…

“Meeting someone with the same mindset as you is rare.”

The generation gap is very dangerous because of how it leads to thinking differences between them and you. To be honest you can never force them to think like you but you have to give time to them to accept it. Because they and you come from a whole new generation gap where everything is so different and honestly it scares me a lot. Mostly among parents and children, there is a big generation gap and because of that it leads to a lot of thinking differences in what both parties exactly want. I have learned that thinking differently leads to a lot of trouble in choosing another step in your life, especially careerwise. My thoughts and my feelings about things are very different from other people of older generations obviously because they came from a whole other generation where things were a lot different and their parents had their own thinking which leads to thinking differences following generations. But what I have noticed is that nowadays the thinking difference era that has been going on for a long time is slowly fading. Thinking differences can be seen a lot in Asian countries from where I come it’s basically where from generation thoughts are transferred but it should not be like that because everyone is different and neither parents nor anyone knows the future. It’s just that everyone should have the right to have other thoughts of their own and people should not force their thinking on anyone else. Time changes and people might not change however they need to accept it slowly for the happiness of others and let all of us finish the thinking difference.

Think about things differently.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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An Adult Dream.

“Adulthood is like looking both ways before you cross the street and then getting hit by an airplane.”

In the last post, I said that life is a rollercoaster that we don’t want to ride but we had to because we have no choice other than that. Considering how so many people have different reactions while sitting or having thought about riding the rollercoaster some hate it while others love experiencing it however that few-second ride makes the person feel all the emotions so much that too at once. When we were teenagers we had dreams of getting good marks, making good lifetime friends, having good relationships with family, and getting into a good university. However, the second you enter your adult life everything changes from thoughts, feelings, expectations, and even body. Being an adult is so hard because people expect us to behave like the obedient ones who know what they are doing but in reality, we are far from it. There is so much difference in being an adult, your whole dreams change, and your whole way of thinking changes from what you thought in your teenage dreams. As an adult your list of dreams is not having good marks but satisfying yourself, making your sanity a priority rather than trying to maintain relationships, having a small group of friends or even one real friend, and finding out what we actually want and what actually makes us happy. When you see the difference between adult dreams and teenage dreams you can see that in teenage life we try to keep up with others’ expectations and focus on more materialistic things, however, in adult life, we truly get to understand that nothing matters as much as ourselves and that is why we focus more on realistic things. But the funny and sad thing is that adult dreams are way harder to achieve because the most important thing that includes is feeling which we can’t control. I just know that whatever I want to do I just want to be happy but being an adult and trying to be just happy is so hard as well. I saw this quote somewhere “Be the adult that you needed as a child” and it truly changes my whole perspective and helps me know and achieve my adult dream.

The level-up is about improving, not impressing.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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A Teenage Dream.

those teenagers who sit in their rooms at night cry themselves to sleep were once children with light in their eyes and hope in their heart.

How wired is it that everyone looks forwards towards teenage life and has so many teenage dreams but when we actually get to live it the expectations versus reality really strikes us. Yesterday I was listening to Teenage Dreams – by Stephen Dawes and at that point, I know I need to write about it. Even though there are so many languages in this world and each person living know or understand at least one of them however never ask a teenager how life is going because no language can describe it as it’s all about feelings that are always left unheard. To be honest teenage period is the middle part where one goes from without knowing and understanding life to getting ready to deal with all of them at once. In childhood, we never really get the taste of what actually life is whereas in the teenage period where everything starts to make sense and we get to see the trailer and finally the legal life where life truly shows what life exactly is. When people say that surviving in teenage life is harder, it is because what you will do in that period truly plays a crucial role in your future. I have noticed and felt as well that the teenage period truly makes you feel all the worst feelings in this world from getting to see that except you everyone else is going great, surrounded by a good family, and going on trips where else on the other hand there is nothing but stress and wanting to do better not for yourself but for others.

To be honest teenage period shows a whole new perspective to us and this time is where people dream so much to achieve once they reach adulthood. Adolescent dreams are all about getting good marks, surviving high school, making new friends, creating a stronger bond with family, creating lifelong friends and memories, and just enjoying the vibe it gives to us. If you are a teenager and fighting to get your life together let me tell you to dream as much as you want and just enjoy the life of that period because trust me ahead it’s all a roller coaster that you never wanted to go on but you had to.

“It takes courage to grow up and become who you really are.”

E.E. Cummings.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Work on You…For You!

I learned a long time ago the wisest thing I can do is be by my own side.

Out of many things, I have learned, the most important among them is that only I, ME, and MYSELF matter. What I want to do I have to do by myself and that will only happen when I will know myself more better than anyone else. You all remember what someone asks us about ourselves we hesitate to answer because we don’t exactly know what to say, maybe because we don’t know ourselves. We work so much in our lives for other people but what about us? To be honest when people ask what kind of superpower I want and I would proudly say that I want to go back in time as there are so many reasons why and one of them is because in what field I am I never wanted to do that as I wanted to do something else and even though people say it’s okay now also you are doing great but that regret will always be in my heart and mind that why I didn’t choose myself just WHY. Nobody is and will be there when suddenly in the middle of the night I get the thought that I wish I could be that or when I see some other person being in the same place I wish to be nobody can do anything to throw away my thoughts about that. But now I understand that I need to work for it and fight for it for myself because I can’t let anybody else decide about the future that I am going to live in. Just focus on yourself and work on yourself for a better present and future. Let the past go and people who stop you and become a hinder in your life working on yourself your mental health and happiness matter above anything. Let go of the things, people, and thoughts that don’t contribute to your goal, you have to work for yourself, you have to get up and make a move for you to be successful and you will only get what you want if you work for it so work on you…for you.

I’m working

on myself

for myself

by myself.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Self-Acceptance!

you carry so much love in your heart give some to yourself.

The entire life we spent trying to get acceptance from others because we don’t know at that time what self-acceptance means or we don’t want to learn about it. It’s so hard to love ourselves and to accept ourselves because in our life we meet so many people who hinder our acceptance to accept ourselves. There are so many people residing in this world and if we will start to live our life according to them and want to get their acceptance then this life is not ours and there is no meaning to it. Just remember you don’t need others’ approval or affection to be good enough, you don’t need them to tell you to do this and do that you are more than capable for yourself. And the most important thing is if someone rejects you and doesn’t like you, IT’S NOT BECAUSE OF YOU, IT’S BECAUSE OF THEM. They have their own insecurities and their own limitations that they can’t accept and don’t let others do so as well. The moment will realize that you don’t need anyone’s acceptance to accept yourself you just need YOU, your worth doesn’t depend upon other people’s acceptance of you. You matter because you exist to live your life however you want, you are allowed to have your own feelings, to love yourself, to accept your own flaws, and so many things that make you accept yourself the way you are. Every human being is born with their own flaws and when we see people walking with confidence is not because they are flawless because they accepted themselves the way they are, and if you accept yourself you will not find anybody pointing out to you because you will not give a damn as you have accepted yourself the way you are, your all the flaws matter because rawness and realness shine from within you. And you are allowed to remove people from your life if you want who make you feel otherwise because there is nothing more important than Self-Acceptance.

Beauty begins the moment you decide to be yourself.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Inner Peace!

Create a safe place within yourself that no one will ever find, somewhere the madness of this world can never touch.

Christy Ann Martine.

Life is way better when we don’t understand anything, life is way better when nothing makes sense, and life is way better when we don’t know the meaning of life. To be honest, the feeling is something that I am very scared of because even though something might happen very good in my life then too my heart is not that happy and I don’t even know why I shouldn’t feel happy about it because feeling of mine is always so messed up. It’s so hard to understand your feelings, and the emotions you are going through are not at all easy to understand your mind and heart both play a lot of things with you maybe your mind feels something else and your heart something else and at that moment you don’t know what to do. And that is why inner peace is so important, it is true when people say that having not too much is good unless it brings you peace in everything. What exactly is inner peace, you may ask? It’s that where you don’t allow outside things to control your emotion and your feelings. Controlling emotions is very hard however we need to learn how to do that for our sanity and our inner peace. And you may ask how? It’s not that simple because today’s everything is cheap but having peace, especially inner peace, is very expensive. We need to make ourselves understand that for us to properly focus on our goal we need to let go of outer things that take up our sanity. We need to prioritize ourselves and tell ourselves it should not matter to us, and that we don’t need to waste our energy which only destroys our inner peace. There is no better place for us them within us, we need to create a safe place in our mind where whenever we want we can discharge ourselves and because of others don’t let our inner peace get destroyed. I hope you get your new success in the form of inner peace.

Do not let the actions and chaos of other people destroy your inner peace.

Till we meet again, Be happy, Be Grateful, and keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Continue…

You’re a fighter. Look at everything you’ve overcome.

Don’t give up now.

It’s so hard to continue being a fighter when everything around you and inside you is crumbling and not making any sense. Being able to continue by gaining courage is one of the toughest things to do. People around us say that keep trying and continuing the path we will make it, but it’s so hard to continue as things might not go according to us. I have been told that in my blogging journey, I just have to keep moving forward, keep doing, and keep trying to be better for a great result. I know for me to reach and achieve my goal I need to continue to make progress to make myself better and keep trying to upgrade myself but someday I just want to quit and not care about it. And it’s okay because those days make you realize the importance of taking one step behind for you to go four steps ahead. Just continue doing what you love, continue to work on yourself, continue to be strong for yourself, and I hope you will achieve your dreams at a great height. Whenever you just don’t want to do it, remember that every step you make is the first step there are a lot of journeys to go to reach the destination and you have to continue moving towards it because you can’t start the new chapter of your life if you keep re-reading the last one. Just like after sunset, the sky is filled with beautiful stars, even though they look so beautiful they know they have to go and let the sun’s brightness come just like that there will be so many phases you will have to go through but please continue.

Constantly,

consistently,

continually,

you.

Perry Poetry.

Till we meet again, Be happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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This Letter is to YOU.

I hope your dream won’t just be left as a dream

Whenever wherever

I’ll cheer you on. ~ MA.

Dear My Readers,

How are you? I hope you are doing great. I want to come here and tell you I am so proud of you for everything you have done for yourself. Sometimes in doing better every time we often forget to appreciate ourselves that even a small mistake makes us feel like a loser. I just want to tell you thank you so much for not giving up, thank you so much for being a pillar for yourself, and thank you so much for not stopping believing in yourself. I know what you are doing is absolutely great maybe at this time you won’t see the result but trust me and yourself it’s going to come super soon. It’s okay if you made a mistake, it’s okay to cry, and it’s okay if you feel weak sometimes there is nothing to feel bad about but it will only make you strong. Don’t make yourself small for anyone. Be that awkward, funny, intelligent, beautiful little weirdo that you are. Don’t hold back. Weird it out. If you ever feel like there is no one for you please do remember that a girl from a small part of this world is keeping you in her prayers and cheering you afar. ( You got this, Just do it, you are doing it right!) I hope your healing journey becomes successful. I hope you achieve your dream of what you always wanted and don’t be shy and become the best version of yourself. You are literally doing your best and if no one is proud of you be proud of yourself.

From, MA.

I have been meaning to write this letter for you all since you have been my upper support in my blogging journey and I feel like I need to appreciate it more. And I hope that after reading this letter you feel at least a little better and if you do I will be so on top of the moon:)

“Thank you for being an important part of my life.” ~ MA.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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I’m Still Learning…

I’m not everything I want to be, but I’m more than I was, and I’m still learning.

Charlotte Eriksson.

The moment you will realize that learning goes beyond the four walls of the classroom is when you will get the reality check that you have grown up. The life we are living right now is a synonym for learning, in life we get so many lessons and learning that make us realize what actually learning and life means. When you become adults the learning life gives you is just mind-blowing, but those are the learning we never forgot, those are the learning that makes us stronger because we experience it with all our emotions joined in them. When I was in school, older people often said, “When you will become an adult and pass out of school, you will understand the real meaning of learning and its phases.” And now I know how bitter truth those words were that someday I will face. Life is a roller-coaster we face so much every day and we learn new things every day. Life is meant to be the phases of learning, unlearning, and relearning and we need to accept it. Every day I make myself realize how perfect I will be at work, there will be someday when I will make mistakes and I don’t need to be sorry about that but need to be happy that I got to learn something new. I always remember that someday I will win and someday I will learn, which really works to help me keep myself motivated and not feel bad about it. It is actually you, you make the progress yourself, if you will allow it then it will happen, but if you know how to control it, and let it pass then you will realize you were just learning new phases of your life. Whenever people say wow you are so good at it, I always reply to them that I’m still learning…

Never forget to remain a student while to teach others.

Jerry Corsten.

Till we meet again Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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