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I’m (NOT) Okay!

Every feeling you feel is VALID.

You know when there are things you are feeling but just can’t put in words or when the day is going okay but then you remember all your problems and your mood becomes sour, yes that is what I am feeling right now. You all the past few days of mine have gone so rough whatever I did in those days makes me feel like I did everything wrong. Nothing is making sense to me and I am stuck in so many ways that I can’t even speak about it because I don’t know how to, everything is just so confusing. I just don’t know where I belong, I wanted to do so many different things and I took the risk but now everything is just going downfall. I am so frustrated right now, just nothing is making sense but as I am writing this down I am understanding that it’s okay to not be okay with what happened has happened now I need to let go of it and look at the positive side that I learned from my mistake and in the future I can stop myself and others from doing it. But sometimes you just can’t ignore the negative side. I understand not everything in my life is going to be right, there will be phases where I will make mistakes and will be so wrong but I need to let go of it and just say that it’s okay I made a mistake now I need to just let go of it and move forward in my life.

Now actually I am feeling okay as I wrote down, the confusion I had is now sorted but there is something that I lost as well as gained from my mistake so I am not entirely sad about it, it’s just making me mad that what I thought nothing like nothing happened like that so that is making me mad and frustrated but it’s okay it was my first time and I made a mistake and nothing turned out the right way and what is the possible way to learn from mistakes – yes right it’s the hard way;)

Everything will be okay in the end.

If it’s not okay,

it’s not the end.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Letting Go…

“You can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks, or even months over-analyzing a situation; trying to put the pieces together, justifying what’ could’ve, would’ve happened… or you can just leave the pieces on the floor & move on.”

Tupac Shakur.

The hardest feeling I felt was when I had to let go of the ice cream that fell on the ground, making one more plus point in my clumsy diary. But on a serious note, why is it so hard to let off of something? Why do we have to think about it so much and why does it hurt so much? Honestly holding on to something that gives you no meaning yet just because you don’t want to waste all the time spent together, all those memories, and all those ahead moments where you both will pass each other like strangers, and trust me I know that feeling very well, it hurts. When we grow up a lot of things change in one’s life and it does affect various relationships as well. And in those times I have learned that a relationship is all about give and take if you are putting your hand forward then they need to do the same both parties need to put in an equal amount of effort. The most shocking thing when a person decides to let go of it is not only because they are not feeling any love but because everything changed, they changed and just thinking about what actually changed there is no answer. You are the same but that person is not the one you know. Letting go of something has the same feeling as when we feel tears leaking out of our eyes in the middle of the night just because our heart is sad but we don’t know the reason behind it. I have realized that letting go doesn’t mean you stop loving them or greeting them but because you stop pitting yourself, you tell yourself to move on, you let yourself get free from all the disturbing thoughts about them, and you just want yourself to be happy and letting go is the solution.

Closure happens right after you accept that letting go and moving on is more important than protecting a fantasy of how the relationship could have been.

Sylvester McNutt.

Keep Smiling, you are loved ~ MA

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Guilt…

THE TRUTH IS,

unless you let go,

unless you forgive yourself,

unless you forgive the situation,

unless you realize the situation is over,

you cannot move forward.

Dr. Steve Maraboli.

The Guilt of not enjoying the moment to the fullest, the guilt of not crediting myself enough, the guilt of not saying how proud I am of myself, the guilt of living on the opinions of others, the guilt of making decisions depending upon the others, and the guilt of not forgiving myself for making wrong decisions like how much we have to capture ourselves with guilt. The feeling of guilt is far more worse than hate because someday hate might go but the guilt that has strangled our hearts is very hard to free. At this time I have learned to live the moments to the fullest and be happy in what I am living because those moments and memories are never going to come back and the feeling of guilt of not enjoying the moment to the fullest and wishes that we could go back and maybe live more will eat up our head. When we will learn to free ourselves from the guilt of the bad decisions that we made, it happened you don’t need to be thinking about that let go of it and make your present and future better than what you have imagined. Forgive yourself for things that you can’t control, forgive yourself for things that you didn’t do wrong, forgive yourself for those things that are not your responsibility, and forgive yourself for choosing yourself over others. Unless you won’t let the past guilt go you can’t move forward is something that I have learned so let go of the past and live in the present. The feeling of guilt is something that will never leave us but we need to learn how to process it and don’t let ourselves dwell in it. Let go of the guilt and make space for better things to enter your life and remind yourself to do better the next time rather than guilt about it.

It’s your life don’t let anyone make you feel guilty for living it your way.

There is another post of mine on GUILT if you want please check that out as well by clicking over here.

Keep Smiling, you are loved ~ MA.

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TIMING!

When everything seems to be going against you, remember that the airplane takes off against wind, not with it.

Henry Ford

One thing I have learned in life is that time waits for no one, what you want to do DO IT NOW otherwise it will be too late. Being able to do everything at a proper time is something we can’t control but being able to use it for proper things is something we can control. Time is changing in a blur, seasons are changing like clothes and some know what they are doing, and some are still confused. I am definitely the latter one but I do believe that timing of life is something we need to trust. Like when I started my blog I was dreading and looking for the perfect time to start but I soon realized that there is no such thing as perfect timing it’s me who has to make it my perfect time and here I am happily in my blogging journey. Now this made me realize that if I didn’t start at that time then I know I would still be looking for that perfect time which might never come because I didn’t take the first step in making my time worthy. If we did hard work and were consistent in our work then definitely time will be in our favor. Growing up till today a lot of time passed by but in those times I learned so much and ahead as well a lot of things are waiting for me to explore. People say with time people change but I want to say that with time you need to reflect on your work, how far you have gotten, what are the things that you did and what are the things that you need to complete. Time is not waiting for anyone and nor do we have to wait for the perfect opportunity just do it at the moment, start it where you can, and trust yourself and the timing will be perfect for you. If you think that right now the timing is bad I’ll start later but do it now because the timing is never going to be perfect you have to make it perfect. Let go of things that have passed and start over without wasting time and it will be worth it for you.

The moment you realize how important time is, you entire perspective will change.

Keep Smiling, you are loved ~ MA

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FUTURE!

And suddenly, you know…It’s time to start something new and trust the magic of beginnings.

Nothing really scares me as much as my future. To be honest in the past I never seriously thought anything about my future. I was never really afraid of what path I am going to choose and so many questions that now haunt me. At this point, I am really afraid because time is ticking and I am not making any decisions. There is a thing that I want to do but still, I am not feeling 100% sure about it and this is how I am. I know I need to give it a try and then only I am going to be confident about it. The future is really a scary thing you don’t know anything about it, and you don’t know if the path you are taking is even right, but that is where the point of belief in yourself comes from. I know I just need to do it and just go where my heart is telling me to. And I hope that whatever you and I make the decision even if you or I are not happy about it still we are going to learn from it a lot. From today onward I am going to make the decision of what I feel is right and even though I may not feel confident about it but somewhere I just know maybe it’s my future…I just need to trust myself and believe in the magic of new beginnings.

Two months of break finally came to an end and to be honest a lot of things happened in that period I finished taking my graduation exam and now I have a very new start in front of me in what I want to do. It’s scary that all of my friends are already on their path and here I am not knowing anything about what I want to do. ‘Sigh.’ To be honest I am afraid that the path I want to take is really for me. Is that really my destination because what I will choose today will affect a major part of my future? So these thoughts are really scaring me. But I know I need to take the first step and the risk that only will make my future stronger.

And now I’ll do what’s best for me!

Keep smiling, you are loved ~ MA

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Finding Courage.

you feel unsettled because you know you are meant for more.

Everything that we want to do is held by something or other, maybe in the form of worry, overthinking about choices that we don’t know are right or wrong, discouragement, and whatnot have filled our mind with the fear of not taking the step. For so many years our hearts have desired so many things yet we are unable to take the step because we are afraid of things that don’t even concern us but others. The decision you have to take will never concern or harm you if it’s for you or if it’s in your favor but we the whole life just think what is the thought of others for us which even means breaking our own hearts. You allowed yourself to courageously think about the future you want, yet you never run behind it. Why? Just so after everything ends, without you even trying what is the outcome that came in your favor nothing? Hear me out this is your year what has ever held you back cut out all the ties from it and run behind your dreams, take a deep breath, keep your eyes wide open and whisper yes and run behind those things that you deserve, and trust me, in the end, it’s your courage that is going to help you survive. Dream as much as you want but have the courage to achieve those dreams without fearing anything. If you decided to follow the path you have longed for, you will have the courage and strength that you will not find but it will be the other way around because getting ready for something is a big decision to make, and if you have done that then I’m so proud of you:). You have to get through vulnerability to find the courage and to be brave but once you get those things you have to put yourself first and find that courage that has hidden behind your fear for so many years and chase after things you always wanted by finding courage.

The courage it takes to leave behind what’s not for you anymore is the same courage that will help you find your way to what is.

Keep Smiling, you are loved ~ MA

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Wanderer…

She was free in her wildness. She was a wanderer, a drop of free water. She belonged to no man and to no city.

Roman Payne.

We are given this life to find a motive and live upon it. However, it is not easy I feel like a long-lost wanderer that is roaming around the world to find my motive in life. What exactly are wanderers? According to me, your race of yours in finding your real identity in this world that sometimes feels like a black hole that is swallowing you deep inside it. I think I come under one of the oldest wanderers because my motive doesn’t seem to find me or vice versa. I have also been a curious and restless child about things that I shouldn’t be concerned about at a certain age but those were my childhood things now I just need to focus on finding myself in this world where so many heterogeneous minds exist. Being a wanderer for a long time makes you afraid of getting confused because it truly says that being lost is okay rather than being confused. After all, the lost soul would find themselves but a confused soul might never. Having confusion in life about so many things makes me afraid because the feeling of not finding any motive for things that I like is making me question myself. But I think at this point in life I am going to be so confused but I think I have reached somewhere where things start to make sense. The wanderer is supposed to be a wildflower that looks beautiful but can’t be controlled and are just like you who has the soul of the boundless sky, a free spirit like the wind, and wild like the ocean. I was never that person who likes to come out of my comfort zone but as I grew up I understood that if you are in your comfortable and stable zone then you are in the wrong place. The most fun comes when you do things out of your comfort zone, being a free spirit with risk is an experience that makes life more adventurous. I want to tell you all that if you are feeling hesitant about coming out of your zone and taking a risk then let me tell you that you will never regret it, believe me because being a wander and finding things on your own is a whole new experience for being able to find yourself raw and real.

If we were meant to stay in one place, we’d have roots instead of feet.

Keep smiling, you are loved ~ MA

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Phases of Life…

“And like moon, we must go through phases of emptiness to feel full again.”

The most important and strange thing I learned when I stepped into my adulthood is that nothing remains the same. I felt like I have changed so much in respect of maturity, understanding, and even my behaviour. The phase of mine from childhood, teenage to adulthood was so much of a rollercoaster, everything changed I started realizing what is worth my time and started losing my interest in those which were not worthy of time. The phases of life are a very strange thing you can even see it in yourself, how you were before and now how you are just like the phase of the moon. It goes through so many phases but in the end, it becomes whole again it’s a destiny for the moon, whatever happens, it has to become a whole moon again even though there were so many hardships then too it the end it is of becoming whole again. But after becoming whole again it starts to move towards a new journey by separating again. Just like our life, the phases of happiness, sadness, and happiness continue throughout but in the end, we will be there where we have dreamed to be. The life lesson you receive in a different phase of life is so much different from what you have experienced before because with the phase you also start to grow up and the maturity of learning new things comes knocking on the door with each and every phase teaching you many new things. After we reach our goal just like the moon we have to start moving forward towards another goal that is what life is about, you have to keep moving and keep getting better for becoming whole again. Let go of things that make you question your life, that make your heart filled with sadness, that make you feel not yourself. Life is meant to happen and the phases of it can’t be ignored but it is here to teach us to keep moving forward and makes us understand the phases of life that are meant for us.

Life is ironic. It takes sadness to know happiness, noise to appreciate silence, and absence to value presence.

Keep smiling, you are loved ~ MA

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The Second Chance!

Taking chances is scary, but there is something that should scare you far more than anything: missing out on something truly wonderful because you were scared.

Katherine Matheson.

Why is only the first chance important and why does it matter if it’s not done in the first chance? There is still another chance waiting to be taken again and start over. The answer to it is difficult to even think about if you can’t do it at first, why do it again? It says the first impression is the last but I highly doubt it after researching deep inside I learned that nobody is trying to see and listen from different perspectives. Why does it just have to be the first one? If you failed the first time, if you can’t do it the first time then there is no other time to do it. I truly disagree with the saying because a second chance is more important than the first. As one takes the first chance and can’t succeed, the second chance is waiting to become another chance for the person. This is life and it’s unpredictable you can’t do everything in one go and be satisfied with it. The second chance we take is by experience and by the courage of not giving up even after so much struggle. The courage and bravery for doing everything again, starting everything again is something that needs a lot of strong will, and let me clarify that if you are having second thoughts about taking another chance due to a lot of reasons I will just tell you to do it. Life and time are never going to be the same so if you are lucky enough to even have an option for another chance just do it, I believe in you that the result will be worth the struggle. First chance teaches you a lot of things from your mistakes to your willpower of making it more perfect. That’s why it is said the second chance is the outcome of undoubtable courage, broken heart, dried tears, and judgments that pierce through your skin. The second chance can’t be the same as the first time, the people, the atmosphere, everything will be changed but you will remain the same but more stronger and faithful in yourself. Chances are given to make things better and right that can’t be done at first. When you will look back, the outcome of the second chance will be seen through your growth, the warmness inside your heart, the sigh of relief, and the pride of not doubting and not giving up on yourself. I want to tell you that you are way more strong than you think, don’t ever doubt yourself, grab the chance you are getting and show the world and yourself the power of a second chance.

Second chances are not given to make things rights.

But are given to prove that we could be better even after we fall.

Keep Smiling, you are loved ~ MA.

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Insecurities…

“I found I was more confident when I stopped trying to be someone else’s definition of beautiful and started being my own.”

Remington Miller.

The biggest drawback as a human being is having to deal with insecurities about oneself that others make you realize. Not going to lie that I never feel insecure about myself. Growing up I got pimples on my face at a pretty young age but at that, I never felt that insecure about myself and by the grace of God, no one ever teases me about it. But now in the stage of adulthood my pimples are somewhat gone but the marks that it has left behind me are now stirring up my insecurities, why don’t I have a clear face, why do I have pimples and a lot of them? And to be honest that’s totally okay having questions because I am a human and it’s my nature but getting over it is what I am learning about. In school I was a good student I guess got good marks and that’s all. I was afraid to stand up on the stage and present things, I was afraid to even say the right answer, and I was not good at drawing and any kind of competition while my friends were. Now that I am writing this, I feel so proud of myself that how far I have come. Since then till today I have changed a lot back then those things matter to me even in family gatherings I was an outcast because I can’t make conversation and talk freely to people I meet once a year…while people around me can. But you all want to know what has changed today, I have gotten a lot of confidence in going on the stage even though I stutter and maybe messed it up, but I don’t feel bad about it anymore. I don’t feel bad for not getting mixed up in the conversation because I have realized my own personality and I don’t want to change anything about it. I have learned the introvert and extrovert personalities, which has made me realize who and what I am today. I have also been taken for granted as I was never great at anything and now I want to prove myself by doing better and better at what I am.

I am so proud of myself that despite my insecurities not only mentally but physically I have reached a point where I started to appreciate myself and be thankful for overcoming the problems on my own. I have learned to never compare myself to others as they can’t be me and vice versa. I know ahead of time that when I am going to feel low about myself what I need to do it, I have figured that out almost, and honestly, I would like to tell you that as well YOU ARE GORGEOUS, I REPEAT and you are enough and perfect for yourself. Insecurities are something that can’t go away, you just need to accept and love them so that others will also appreciate you as you do them.

“You are so used to your features, you don’t know how beautiful you look to a stranger.”

Keep Smiling, You’re Loved:) ~ MA

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