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Raw feelings…

Being a person who feels things deeply is exhausting.

I was sitting in the middle of the chaos, but my heart was so empty that the outside chaos couldn’t stir the chaos in my heart. These are my thoughts when I was sitting between kids running around and just living their lives. And this brought me back to my time as a child. I was a child who lived fully. I played my heart out and never worried about my future or what I would be once I grew up. Now, when I look at myself, I have grown a lot in a lot of ways. I was a child who never believed that I could stand up on the stage and speak a few things, that I could overcome any challenges, or that I could ever achieve things. But as for where I am today, I can proudly say I am doing everything that I was made to believe that I couldn’t do. I feel like, as I have gotten older, I have gotten really quiet, but I have a raging storm in me that I don’t know how to express. But at certain times, I feel like nothing, no matter what is happening around me, I feel empty inside. I don’t know how to express myself, especially my feelings, which are so intense that I feel nothing, leaving me feeling empty from the inside. This makes me believe that every feeling is valid, and it’s okay to feel nothing when everything becomes intense. Everyone has different ways in which they deal with their feelings. For me, it’s to give it time and let it flow; otherwise, I can’t function properly. Also, I need to think about my feelings, I need to observe my surroundings and express how it makes me feel, and one of the reasons why I am here is to express my raw feelings.

I wrote this post in the situation, so it came really raw. I hope whoever is reading this post is okay, and that it’s okay to deal with feelings that make you feel nothing inside. Everything will work out eventually.

It’s okay. To feel all the feels.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Review: ‘High School Frenemy’ Thai Drama (2024)

“The most important thing that I’m giving up.

It’s not school.

It’s you, Shin.” – Saint.

After seeing so many reels of this drama, I decided to give it a try and I went blind into it without knowing anything was it the best decision? Hell yeah! I am someone who hardly has dramas that are stuck in my mind otherwise I just watch it for fun. But if I watch a drama and it touches my heart and soul then it is game over for me, it will become my personality and I will never recover from that hangover ever. And this is what happened when I watched ‘High School Frenemy’ and OMG what a masterpiece. It is about Saint and Shin who used to be best friends in the past, however, an incident broke their friendship. Both belong to two different campuses but the administrator decides to combine both campuses which for many years hated each other. But now they will be sharing the same roof for the next school year. I didn’t know that it was a remake of School 2013, the Korean drama.

For me, friendship is the most important and valuable thing in my life. I think no love can top the friendship relationship. And this drama made me more empathetic and grateful towards my friends. The plot, the friendship, and the pure relationship between teacher and student were just beautiful to watch in this drama. I love the male lead when they are quiet and mysterious but actually, a beast inside that is what Saint is. Even though it is kind of a plot twist the second I saw him in the first episode I knew he was a wolf in sheep’s clothing. Saint, what can I say about him, he is such a character who would do anything for his friends, but he is also a flawed character who has made mistakes as a teenager. Sky who played the character of Saint, OMG has done such incredible acting, the way his eyes are always filled with guilt and regret. The way he acted so helpless because he wanted forgiveness, the way he delivered the dialogues, and the way he acted through his eyes made the drama and character more special.

Then we have Shin, he is just a pure character. In the beginning, you will meet Shin, you might not like him but his best friend, Saint did to him making his action totally understandable. Nani, who has played the character of Shin, what can I say about it? He has done such marvellous acting, and his eyes are the star of his character. He is just a pure character, so kind, and so forgivable. He went through so much pain but he was so selfless. I loved his character the most because being selfless is not easy and only strong people can do it like him.

“You must have changed for real.

But one’s true nature is unlikely to change.” – Shin.

Let’s talk about the friendship between them, OMG that is the star of the drama. The dialogue, the staring, and the longing between them were so powerful that they made me breathless. It is a bromance but there was something more powerful between them, and the chemistry was just off the chart. Having a friend who can do anything for each other, even die is what they were to each other. Saint taking a beating for Shin and telling him, he will protect him forever was just beautiful to watch. Shin making sure to be with Saint forever, their friendship is just amazing and pure. The conversation between them was a chef kiss. Did I sob when they mend their friendship? Did I not stop giggling? Did I want everyone to have a friend as their safe zone? A big yes. And let me tell you the secret, I have a best friend who is my personal diary, my trauma relief, and the friendship that I ever wanted, and I will be forever thankful for that girl.

Another star of the show is Chadjen. He was the cupid for Saint and Shin to recover their friendship. I adored him so much. Then we have the teacher Jan. She was the moment and the character of the drama. If only in real life we had teachers who understood us rather than judged us, this world would be so much better. Jan is so beautiful from inside and outside. Because of her, all the classmates became friends, and the war ended.

This drama will forever be in my mind and I will always have a wish to erase it again so that I can watch this drama again for the first time. The chemistry, the friendship, the lessons, and the understanding between teacher and student were top-notch. Everything in this drama was a chef kiss.

If you can take any one recommendation from me, please be it this one and thank me later.

“You don’t need to understand us if you already judge us.” – Saint.

My Rating: 10/10

Total Episodes: 16

Genre: Friendship, youth, drama

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Remember when…

Nostalgia

a sentimental or wistful yearning for the happiness felt in a former place, time, or situation

Please allow me to take you back in time with this post. I have been thinking about writing this post for a while and finally got the right chance. I was not somebody who used to get emotional or connected to memories often, however, it all changed after I made a friend almost 10 years ago, we got really close 6 years ago and since then she has been the person who always makes me remember all the good times. As an adult it is nice to say back in our days we used to do this, we used to eat this, and in such a small amount we used to get so much.

Remember when we had to wait an entire day to talk to our friends? Remember when nothing like getting bored was invented? Remember when playing outside was a big pleasure? Remember when walking in your school corridor made you feel like royalty? Remember when homework was hard as Google never existed in a student’s life? Remember when phone games were a thing? Remember when we used to stay in front of the TV turning on the music channel and waiting for our favorite song to play? Remember when we used to record songs by keeping the phone in front of the TV speaker? Remember when the weekend felt like a whole reset? Remember when days do feel like days? Remember when stress and anxiety were never a thing? Remember when we used to wait for our favourite show to come? Remember when we have to memorize the channel number? Remember when having a CD was a premium? Remember when we used to eat sneakily in the classroom? Remember when social media did not even exist? Remember all the good times that we want to relive again. Alas! Those days will never come back but memories will forever be stored in the heart and to relive them just begin with a sentence remember when…

Memories are stitched with love.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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things that you don’t realize until you grow up!

We’re almost there and nowhere near it. All that matters is that we’re going.

I mean let’s start with when we were children we always wanted to be an adult because that 10-year-old child thinks that we will have the ability to do whatever we want because we will be an adult. And when you truly become an adult before that only in the teenage years, you understand how wrong you were and how much you were living in delusion. What I know is that when I was a kid, time and people were very different and I too wanted to be an adult because at that time circumstances were not that bad but now it’s not even bearable because of how young people are struggling to prove themselves to live in the society.

1. People:

Yes, nobody remains the same and you do too but some people you meet in your childhood that you dream about to be forever are a big scam. It’s true with time people change and changes are mandatory to grow however it doesn’t mean you must forget where you came from and who was with you in your hardest time fortunately some people do and this we realize only when we grow up.

2. Changes:

When everything starts to make sense and they were there too when you were a child but as an adult you will or I can say how we should as per some people we as adults should take responsibility for the changes that happen not because of us it’s just wrong timing I guess. Changes scare me because it does not only happen with mindset but with people too which we only understand when we grow up.

3. Feelings:

Sometimes talking out loud is so important to let people know how much they are hurting you and to make them understand that your feelings matter as well and that you are hurting too. But when we say our feelings out loud it makes us feel like we are gaining sympathy or it’s just nothing to look after. Growing up in an Asian household I know it so well because we have to emphasise everything we have to make people understand that our feelings matter too.

4. Peace:

Yes, the most important thing we want when we grow up is peace so that we can focus on ourselves and our goals. When we become an adult we just somehow take up the responsibility of others and solve their problems and amidst that, we just forget our problems and the things that we need to focus on. Sometimes I just want to read a book and have a Chai sitting in the park on the fresh grass and listening to birds chirping it’s enough for me. However even though it’s free and so simple it’s the hardest thing to achieve when I become an adult.

5. Sacrifice:

If we want to become an adult we have to sacrifice our childhood which we wouldn’t have minded when we were little, however now we are sacrificing things that we don’t even need to but circumstances. The worst part is that we don’t even realize we are sacrificing until it’s too late and people don’t even see how much we are putting effort by sacrificing our mental health, our goals, our sleep, and our life.

6. Dreams:

People don’t understand how important it is to have a dream and to be able to achieve it. But as an adult dreams do come with a big sacrifice that sometimes giving up the dream is an option. What hurts the most is to see someone else in that place which you always dreamed about and which you always longed for. You will understand that dreaming is easy but you have to fight for it so that you can achieve it and you realize it when you grow up.

Final Note:

When we grow up we truly understand that materialistic things value nothing but emotion and peace of mind is so important that things don’t have any price then too it’s the most expensive to have. Focusing on yourself is very hard as an adult but please see yourself above others, understand that your life matters the most and stop caring about people, it will take time but trust me it will be worth understanding things that you don’t realize until you grow up!

May the petals teach me the art of letting go.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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CHILDHOOD!

I miss when I was little, and didn’t care about my weight, clothes or hair.

I just did what made me happy.

The importance of childhood will only be understood when we grow up. The beautiful moments, the most embarrassing moments which will never leave you alone, the lessons we learn while growing up, the amount of time we fell and hurt ourselves and so many memories we never want to forget. So nostalgia! To remember all of the childhood memories. It’s a past we will always remember and it’s the only past we want to remember! Time flies like a wind and there is no false in it. It’s a sarcasm for me that whenever I try to remember the moments of my childhood, I don’t know why in the world the embarrassing moments are the first one to reach my mind than any beautiful moments?!?! I think they are waiting every time to make me realize what kind of embarrassing moments happens with me. Honestly I think it has its own charm because at that time the mind of a child is learning and understanding the world. Is this only me or there are people who wants to join me in my “beautiful moments”;) Honestly my childhood was all about me playing 24/7 outside, the amount of sports I had played was just so remarkable. OMG! I can’t believe I was such a sporty person and you know I also brag about it (feeling so proud)! You can still play them but playing in childhood was just out of the world feeling. I was that extrovert who HATES studying and just want to play;) I am literally laughing while writing this and remembering my moments when I had no care in the world. When I passed my school, I was a child and now after one more year added to my life, like five days ago I am still feeling child inside me:) It really hits you when you know a long time passed of you sitting on the shoulders of your grandparent’s, when all the relatives gives you money while leaving, when you doing mischiefs and putting the blame on your siblings (we still do), fake refuse to eat as you are mad on your parents for not giving you chocolate or not buying you toys are the memories we cherish for lifetime. Those days were golden when we don’t care for things which we have to do now. One of my favourite memories has to be ringing the bell of the neighbours and to run away:) The talks we listen in the childhood and now. He/she are a child will not understand and now you are grown up be mature! Everyone has to grow up as time does not stop for anyone. In whatever phase you are living, try to make it memorable and remarkable for you to remember:)

Childhood dreams are forever stuffed in our souls.

Take them out and play sometimes.

Angie Weiland-Crosby.

Till we meet again, Be Happy Be Grateful and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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