living our own life?

Your heart knows the way. Run in that direction.

Everybody pretty much talked about the responsibility of adulthood, the job, the financial situation; however, nobody talked about how, amidst that, it will be so hard to live our lives. There are so many responsibilities that an adult carries; however, we have to look at everything. However, what about living our own lives? I have come to reflect on how little time we get for ourselves; it’s mostly taken up by others and their responsibility. I always heard while growing up that responsibility is like a curse that will slowly take you under its spell, and you will not realise it when it happens.

There are so many moments in my life where I just wanted a minute of peace just for myself, but I didn’t know it would be so hard. The hardest thing is that it all comes down suddenly in the middle of the day, and it takes weeks for me to recover my mind and be my usual self. This is my life, but I have to look at so many aspects that I sometimes forget how much I am suffering in the process. I want to work on myself and just myself. I want to take just my responsibility and create the life that I deserve.

I just realised how important it is to move and go to another place because that’s how you create your own life, take care of yourself, and find your personality. At first, I used to think it was scary moving to an unknown place, but now I have realised the person you become in an unknown place is the strongest and the happiest version of yourself. You find yourself, you don’t have to think about others, you just focus on what makes you happy, and honestly, that’s beautiful to live through. It’s your life, so you should be able to make decisions that you feel are right because in the end, it’s you that matters, nobody else.

Live where your hearts find life.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Not starting is scarier…

Sometimes we have to stop being scared and just go for it. Either it’ll work or it won’t. That is life.

I used to think that taking the opportunity would be scarier, and entering into a new world would be impossible because I didn’t know anything. This was my mindset. However, as I grew up or was growing up, I realised that no matter how much I read theoretically, the most I will learn through the practicality of my life. Now, as an adult, if I let an opportunity go by, be it big or small, it hurts me so much because I don’t know what that opportunity would bring me in the form of a blessing. I have read about many people, and all of them talk about how they were looking for something else, and suddenly, one opportunity came, and just like that, they took it, and now they are where they were supposed to be. Now, as the realisation hit me that if I let go of the opportunity due to my fear of not getting selected, it would harm me more than being rejected after giving it a shot. Not starting is scary, which is my mindset whenever I am about to try something new. I made up my mind that I should give it a try. I don’t know how much I know, and I will not know until I try. Rather than doubting myself before even starting, I focus on what I am about to learn. Rejection teaches us a lot. I am writing it with my experience, it makes us think that at least we tried, at least we overcame our fear and went through it. It’s life, there will be many rejections, but that doesn’t make you a failure, but the strongest soldier who took the first step. Start just start, no matter how scary it looks, trust me, when you look back, you will be so proud of yourself. For you to look back and be proud, you need to start, no matter how scary it looks, it will make such a difference in your life.

Making a big life change is scary. But you know what’s scarier? Regret.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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It’s okay to slow down.

You will find your way, even when it feels like you won’t.

I have been telling myself lately that it’s okay to slow down, and the only thing that is keeping me sane. You know when you reach a level where you are doing so much but are unable to see the result, yes, that’s where I am. I want to fly so high, but whenever I feel like I am about to touch the sky, it moves far away, and I start feeling that maybe flying high is not written in my destiny. I have been in a phase which makes me so proud to see how far I have come, but also in a phase where I am unable to be proud of myself; it feels like there is always something that pulls me back. I’m experiencing a range of emotions, but at the same time, I feel nothing; this is my standard status for so many years. And I let my emotions flow within me. If I am not feeling well mentally, then I won’t force myself to do anything, and that’s how I feel better. I always remind myself that my health is more important than anything, and if it makes me slow down, then it’s totally okay. Actually, everybody says to work hard and do it, but when it starts affecting your health, then slow down and let your emotions flow. Slowing down doesn’t mean you are behind; no, it’s all about your pace. I always remind myself to focus on my own journey and not compare it to others. It’s okay to slow down and reflect on how far you have come; it’s okay to dwell on how things didn’t go perfectly, allow all your emotions to flow; it doesn’t make you feel insane, but it will allow your mental health to be sane. Everything you are doing is perfect, even when you feel like it’s not, but at least you are trying. Life is all about making you feel all the emotions and nothing at once, so slow down if things feel too heavy, take a rest, look in the mirror and smile for how much you have held up, and if you want to cry, cry, it doesn’t make you weak but proud that you are allowing yourself to be okay.

It’s okay to grow slowly.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write

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Lost a version of myself

Maybe losing is a disguise to slow down life and truly live in it. – M A

Nobody talks about that, as you become an adult, you also lose a past version of yourself, a version that you never wanted to lose. We always thought that as we grow older, things would get better, but nobody talks about the battle with life, how much we have to work hard to overcome our insecurities to see the lessons from our failures, and whether we are going to make life better or not. At this point in my life, when I look back, I’ve lost a version of myself, a version that never overthinked about life that was really optimistic in whatever she wanted to do, but after seeing and going through the struggles, every time in my mind it goes through that I have become a version where I’ve lost the spark, the spark that people feel when they accomplish big, the spark that people feel after getting into their dream college. Even though I’ve been through all of those pages, that spark is what is missing. I am at that place in my life where things are moving way too fast, and I’m getting overwhelmed. I feel like we are moving so fast in every step of our lives, before we even appreciate where we are right now, we need to move on to achieve greater things. Time is moving so fast, which has also contributed to losing the excitement, because we truly are not living in the moment, but running a race. We have become like robots. Maybe we expect so much from life that at a certain point, when we reach a step, we are so exhausted that we become so dull, so that it takes time to get our sparks back. And then that version doesn’t exist anymore. I feel like we really need to take time and reflect on what we have in our lives right now, and enjoy what truly makes us happy and brings a spark in our eyes, rather than see a lost version…

The girl and her lost version…

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write

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I’m trying…

Nothing hurts more than trying your absolute best and still not being good enough.

When life gets overwhelming, I always question myself about what I am even doing. It’s not working, no matter how hard I try; I always lack somewhere. Why is it just me? Why? This question haunts me the most, and the answer to it is impossible to find. I think no matter how good you are doing, there is always a time in life when life feels so heavy and you are standing on the edge, not knowing what to do next. Recently, I have been too busy with life, a lot of things to do for my future and amidst that, I am also busy thinking, will it work out for me? If it didn’t, what am I going to do? It is not easy to choose a path, but it is also harder to leave the chosen path and start over again. I think no one gives us credit for how much we are trying, everyone wants to live a good life, wants to earn money, and fulfil their wants; however, it is not as easy as it seems. It takes a lot of effort, time, and battles to get there, but people don’t understand that. If we fail at something, they will say. Why can’t you do it? It was so easy. However, I have always said that no one knows how much you struggle, so saying is easy, but only you know how much you have tried and are trying. I’m trying, I really am. However, everyone only wants to see the result, and that too good. However, what about me trying, the efforts I am putting in, why is it not okay to fail sometimes, why is it not okay to try multiple times? Just why? Everyone is trying their best, and it’s okay to be slow, take time, and be on the path, confused. That doesn’t make you a failure or someone who is not trying. I’m trying is the first step towards your biggest achievement. No matter what others say, you are doing your very best. Keep it up!

I’m trying my best, I really am

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write

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It’s Okay…

It’s okay if all you did today was survive.

It’s okay if days are not going the way you want them to be. It’s okay if things are going great, and something happens, but it does not make you a failure. My life has been on a roll, I’m busy preparing for so many exams that I have a deadline this month which will decide my future, and today I cut my hand so badly that I’m recording to write this blog post. And guess what, my exam is in a week and I have injured my hand, which I’m supposed to write with. I was kind of panicking, but it’s okay, I am fine again. I am doing great, and I will be better very, very soon.  Life is like that, only it will test you at every step, and it comes so suddenly that we don’t know how to deal with it. But again, at this point in my life, where I have seen so much and been an adult for such a long time, I have learned that life works that way; it will test you, but we have to believe in ourselves. Just like happiness, there is sadness, and for the rainbow to be there, the storm has to come. After every difficulty, we definitely get to see the result; we just need to hang in there. I had the habit of always questioning myself if I didn’t accomplish something, I put such pressure on my mind and kept thinking about what went wrong, but later realised nothing was wrong, it’s just a phase of life which will go, I just need to believe in myself that I can do it. If I put pressure on myself and start questioning my existence, that world is going to do the same, and I’m not going to be okay. So let me tell you, it’s okay, you’re doing fine, one setback will not decide your future, but it’s your courage to pass through it that will. So hang in there, do what you love and remember to say this yourself when life gets a little hasty, it’s okay…

You are strong, but you are also tired, and that is okay.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write

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It’s Going To Be OKAY!

There are going to be days when you are not going to be okay with everything that is happening to you and around you but you are going to have to tell yourself everything is going to be alright just so you can sleep at night and move on.

Hey there, I think it is really important that you know right now that it’s going to be OKAY. I just want to tell you that because I feel like you needed to hear that, and I really mean that. I am really proud of you. You might feel like it’s really tough, and I know it’s really tough, but please hang in there and everything is going to be okay. Trust yourself it’s just a life phase, it’s just a chapter it will pass on, and it will turn. Just please hang in there. I just want to say that overthinking will take you nowhere. You should know that every feeling you feel doesn’t need to have an answer or solution. Sometimes you need to accept what you are feeling and slowly you have to let it sink. Life is never perfect, we miss opportunities, we make mistakes, we lose our minds, and it’s okay it’s a part of the life you are living. It doesn’t show that you are failing, no, it doesn’t. Just as feelings of accomplishment or happiness make you happy at the same time feelings of sadness, and unsuccessfulness make you strong. Just like I say every time life is a process of bitter sweet bitter sweet. You need to feel and go through all the steps you can’t escape anyone and you need to accept that. Somedays are meant to teach you and somedays are meant to reflect, it’s part of life that is inevitable. Take a deep breath and say that it’s going to be OKAY!

Not going to spoil the ending for you, but it’s going to be okay.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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