Tears won’t fall…

Some cry with tears, others with thoughts…

Lately, my feelings have been all over the place and because of that, I am feeling a lot of different emotions that are very eccentric. The post feelings nowadays describe why this post comes into the picture. You know when at a certain point in your life you come to realize how different your life has become in just a certain span of time. The growth and the development of career and education are a whole lot of different things. However the inner emotions, the feelings, the difficulties all of these make you feel that you are the most stupid person in the whole world. And what is that sucks you know when the emotions are dead there is nothing you feel, you are just going with the flow. It is said that when the feelings are overwhelmed in the heart then you bleed with the eyes, and the tears prove that you feel hurt. However, one thing I realized late is that the heart also bleeds and it shooks up the soul in an unimagined way. But now everything is changed when we say a cold-hearted person does not feel anything you know why because the emotions are dead. There is a wall between the heart and the feelings that is not letting the heart feel anything the tears won’t fall.

It hurts but at the same time, you feel nothing, it’s like a body without a soul. Does everyone go through this phase in their life or is it just me? Your heart bleeds too when it gets overwhelmed by the emotions and your tears are not falling from your eyes. You know now everything will change how you feel, how you used to be, and how you will be. It gives the situation that even though you are surrounded by people on a buzzing street but still from afar you look like an alone person covered in a black hoodie that hides all their pain and emotions. Now all the feelings that were left for others are over, you only need to focus on yourself and your mental health and maybe that is why tears won’t fall…

The most painful tears are not the ones that fall from your eyes and cover your face. They’re the ones that fall from your heart and cover your soul.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Feelings Nowadays…

And then suddenly I cared even less.

I was thinking is it good right that we stopped caring, we don’t feel anything, we are in a neutral mood, and we do not fear anything, what happens happens? But at the same time, another thought went through me: why is it bad to be caring, why is it bad to feel anything? Why did we stop caring because we went through something right? Because our voices are never listened to, before we stopped caring, something happened, something we went through that made us feel like this. We are humans and are bound to have feelings; there is nothing wrong with that. It is just up to us how to make ourselves strong and keep our feelings in check but that does not mean we are emotionless. I think the world has misunderstood the concept of keeping our feelings in check and on the other hand thinking it is good to have I don’t care aura. If a person is good at taking feelings that does not mean it will not hurt him/her.

And when things start to get better, you finally start to sort out your feelings that sudden realisation, that what if all those things happened again when you start caring and you see yourself at the same spot what if you are back at the square? And after a while, it feels good when you stop caring because nothing matters right? With less intervention, people just leave you alone and you are emotionless. But what about the inside war you are battling to be honest you also know that you have to do it alone anyway but it hurts more when it actually starts to feel like alone amidst people. And then they ask you why you changed, and what happened as if they are not the reason behind all of this.

And you know what sucks more that nothing can bring you enjoyment like after eating your favourite food, reading your favourite book, or watching your comfort show nothing brings you excitement it’s like you just feel nothing like you used to and now nothing can bring you happiness.

This blog post is very raw. I wrote this in pieces whenever I felt like my feelings needed to be poured out and now when I read this I can see that it’s better to stop caring…

And then one day with no explanation, she just didn’t care anymore.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Review: ‘Hidden Love’ C-drama (2023)

“He’ll have his family in the future. He has me and many others who love him. We all love you” – Sang Zhi

I will just start by saying that I love this drama so much that I literally think about it every single day. The chemistry, the visuals, the love, the friendship, the bonding, the maturity everything is good in the drama. This drama tells the story of Sang Zhi who at the age of 14 gets a crush on her brother’s best friend, Duan Jiaxu. Now here is one of the reasons why I love this drama more is because he never weirdly looked at her but only as a sister until she turned 19 and he realized his feelings. This is what hooked me to the story, he never romanticised her or thought about her in a weird way when she was a minor.

As you know how so many dramas create female leads as childish and immature this drama right here proves everything wrong. She is a lovable person and she is so thoughtful towards Duan Jiaxu from the moment she gets to know him, I think it is not enough to talk about how much of a green flag Sang Zhi is. She cares for Duan Jiaxu and is very sensible and mature for her age literally even Duan Jiaxu is shocked to see how someone can love him so much.

This drama also breaks the stereotype about how every time a female lead has to suffer, she becomes a problem to the male lead. Talking about Duan Jiaxu, I just want to say he is a man that every woman desires. He is so strong in the amount of things he has dealt with and still can smile and care for others is so courageous. He understands Sang Zhi without any words spoken. He literally cried when he learned how much Sang Zhi loved him for such a long time.

I love that both equally love each other so much. He is there for her and she is there for him. They both trust each other so much which is like a jackpot which is hard to win. There is no break-up, they handled the problem so gracefully and I can see that both were never ready to let go of each other. Also, I love Sang Zhi’s brother, Sang Yan he is the reason why they got together.

The OST is to die for, every time it plays I also sing along. The cinematography was breathtaking. Also, the whole drama is just focused on them there is no second lead couple, it is just basically them which I loved because then we truly can enjoy every aspect of the drama and couple properly without getting bored. 

The vibe of the drama is so cute, chill, and just beautiful. It is like a breeze of fresh air that we need very much. Highly recommend this drama, please just watch it and thank me later.

My Rating: 10/10

Total Episodes: 25

My Favourite Episodes: All

Genre: Romance, Brother’s Best Friend, Youth

“She helped me out of the past, I’ll be responsible for her future.” – Duan Jiaxu

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Why are unfinished stories more beautiful?!

Love is like war…easy to start, difficult to finish and impossible to forget.

As I have already said, I am not a huge romantic type of a person so feelings naturally do not come to me. However, some days ago I watched a 17-minute short film where the love story remains unfinished and let me tell you I bawled my eyes out and then decided to write this post. It’s a controversial opinion but for me, the ending does not matter if the plot serves its purpose perfectly. The short film included two people who love each other yet can’t be with each other and never confess and trust me that kind of love definitely hurts the most. Love has many parts; one part makes us feel like we are on cloud nine. However, the biggest part about loving is being each other’s strength and facing challenges together. If I read a book or watch a drama I love to see the bonding and how the couple love each other despite the ending. Nobody can change the ending but that does not mean the story can’t be beautiful. Unfinished stories hurt the most, but those stories are like masterpieces about what a love went through to not have a happy ending. I think it’s common that we hear about ancient stories where it is always talked about how two souls have done so much for each other but fate plays its dice and not let the two soul mates be with each other. These are the stories that are more heard and more loved. Because it has such a beautiful depth that brings tears in the eyes and goosebumps on the body. And it is said truly that true love stories never have ended it is loved by everyone and heard by everyone. Unfinished stories set an example of how difficult love is and it is not about the physical but the soul that resides in it. I know it hurts to just think that two people who love each other are not destined to be with each other, nothing can bend fate but that does not mean that unfinished love is not beautiful. Trust me unfinished stories are so mesmerising that you just want to wrap your hand around them and ask how two people can love each other so much that they are ready to sacrifice. Ending this by writing that unfinished stories are the only thing people can find beautiful and heart-wrenching.

They call it a mystery. I call it love. In both cases, the story remains unsolved and incomplete…

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Book Review: Then She Was Gone by Lisa Jewell

Then She Was Gone was my first book by Lisa Jewell and I think there are way better books she has written than this one. It is about Laurel Mack, whose daughter, Ellie Mack disappeared 10 years ago. So Laurel Mack is trying to move on and meets a man named Floyd Dunn and his daughter Poppy who look exactly like Ellie Mack and then the story begins.

This was the thriller where I predicted everything the second every character was introduced, which is in the starting part of the book. I had already imagined everything and was flipping pages to read. I have seen many reviews saying it was dark and obviously what happened to Ellie was devastating, however, I did not find this book that dark it was okay for me maybe because I knew what was going to happen. Honestly, I expected more from this book as there is only one plot twist and other times it is just the story going on with no revelation which might be boring but since Lisa’s writing is so simple and addicting and just like that I was finished with the book. For me why it was not dark because Ellie’s POV is not much what was happening to her was told in just a few lines it was from another POV also Laurel’s feelings for her daughter’s disappearance were not explored enough and it was rushed what I felt.

Talking about the setting, it did bring some creepiness to the book and Poppy’s character definitely elevated more. However no other characters stood out to me as such, I felt it was very basic. The other characters were not much explored even Floyd which I felt if explored would make the book more thrilling.

The ending was rushed as I expected more but it ended in a very basic way which for a thriller I did not find thrilling. It was not a bad book, you could definitely read it but I personally would not find myself thinking about this book in the future.

Side Note: I just want to clarify that this is entirely my opinion, you are free to love this book and I am free to give my opinion on this book. I would be very happy if you loved this book but please do not take this review to heart and it is okay to have different tastes. Thank You.

Rating: 3/5 (Please proceed by looking at the trigger warnings.)

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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I GRADUATED!!!!!!!

So, I close my eyes to old ends and open my heart to new beginnings.

You all I GRADUATED and I can’t believe how fast time has gone. I am a little late with this post but it’s okay I just wanted to share my thoughts and happiness on this and maybe after 10 years I will be back again reliving this moment. On my blog, I have already talked about how my first year started online and I hoped that my last year would be offline in the post Back to the Grind where I began going to university again after the pandemic. My end was definitely offline and I enjoyed it a lot but someday I did feel like just quitting it, I mean it’s common right? As I said earlier I am late for this post however after graduating I went through a lot in deciding what I wanted to do. And had a lot of clashes with family members as their opinions were entirely different than mine and it went on for months. A lot of tears were shed, a lot of discussions, a lot of tense situations and no outcomes were coming out. Obviously, it did come but after months of hard times, we are finally over and here I am I wouldn’t say that this is what I wanted and someday I do think a lot if things had happened the way I planned that would be so much better and life would be so different. But it is okay, I guess I need to move on and I am okay because this outcome is not that bad, just some regrets lingering behind and it will never go away I know that and I have learned to live with it. And now I can feel that tears will drop at any moment.

Graduation feels like a dream, growing up, going to school, college and getting a degree and just like that life changes a lot. In school, it’s just getting good marks but in college, it’s about being a better and a kind person. To be honest for me, college was a safe hole because I did not have to think about the future and maybe I wanted time to stop and let me live in the moment longer but Alas! I made good friends and had a good time getting to know myself a lot better. And I most definitely passed with very good grades and I am so thankful to myself for pushing through and reaching another milestone in my life. And I know now as at this moment there might be a lot on my plate but I am going to be okay as long as I have faith and believe in myself.

To all who graduated or are graduating soon, I am so proud and happy for you and just believe in yourself, the future is going to be okay.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Book Review: The Archer’s Voice by Mia Sheridan

“I thought about how Bree and I were so different…and yet so similar. She carried the guilt of not fighting when she thought she should have, and I carried the scar of what happened when you did. We had each reacted differently in a moment of terror, and yet we both still hurt. Maybe there was no right or wrong, no black or white, only a thousand shades of gray when it came to pain and what we each held ourselves responsible for.” – Archer

I have another romance book to review for you guys. The plot of this book is so beautiful and healing. It is about Bree and Archer dealing with a traumatic family drama. So Bree comes to the small town of Pelion, Maine to overcome her past and create a new life. However, she does not know that there she will meet a boy named Archer Hale who does not like to communicate yet he still will capture the heart of Bree through his captivating eyes.

You know how one random person comes into your life and changes everything, and this book is that for me. I admire Archer and how strong he is as a person who has dealt so much in life and doesn’t even have someone who can support him until Bree. He can’t speak and people don’t even try to talk to him yet he learned sign language.

“It suddenly occurred to me that Archer Hale had taught himself an entire language, but hadn’t had a single person to talk to. Until me” – Bree.

Bree is a sweetheart that truly understands Archer and there are so many quotes in this book that I just love. Bree communicates with Archer with sign language even though Archer can hear why because that would make Archer more comfortable. These are the moments where both understand each other so much.

The family drama is quite to deal with and it definitely breaks my heart when I read about how a child has to go through this all alone. Archer the way in the end stood for himself and made himself strong is so admirable to watch. I love that in the end, the author did not bring Archer’s Voice back otherwise it would not be realistic and it would lose the meaning of the book.

The ending is so cute and just beautiful and I think I also healed a part of myself just like Bree and Archer. Highly recommend this book. Bree lost all of her hope but Archer with his captivating soul was able to give Bree a new life just like Archer lost his voice however Bree was the one who found Archer’s Voice.

Rating: 4/5

“I know I’m probably the last person you want to see right now, but I just thought if I sat on your porch, you wouldn’t be scared. You wouldn’t be alone.” – Archer to Bree (best line in the book)

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Dear My Past Self!

Dear My Past Self,

I forgive you. You were young and you didn’t know any better. But you were never wrong. I’m sorry I was too harsh on you, I’m sorry that I did not believe in you, I’m sorry I always doubted you, and I’m sorry for saying you can’t do any better. You were doing your very best and I know you did lose but it is OK, I can guarantee you, we will be doing okay in the future, don’t worry. Now you’ve grown, you know better, and you’ll do better so rest assured my dear, I forgive you.

— Your Future Self

There is a reason why I keep it all inside because I have “Only Me” to listen to my words.

I never thought how much I owe to my future self. Our past is indeed the reason for where we are now. To succeed in the future we have to go through failure not because we are not capable of succeeding at first but because failure is the key to making us the strongest person in the room. You deserve everything and the past plays an important role in that. For wanting to watch the breathtaking sunrise we need to hike miles through rocky mountain roads but in the end, it is all worth it. But it is you who decides that you want to watch that sunrise so you climb that rocky mountain because you know in the end it will be all worth it. Same with life to achieve success you need to go through rocky phases in the past to be able to get a deserved future. I know the mistakes, disappointments, failures, all negative feelings are not easy to deal with but aren’t those feelings that make you the strongest, that make you the toughest, and that make you fight for your dreams. Don’t try to compare yourself with your old self that was your version where you were learning a lot and mistakes were meant to happen. And your new version will be the version of new growth, new learning, and new mistakes and that is okay. What is important is the “actual you,” don’t lose it because life is diverse, it will change and you will also see a lot of your versions but be true to yourself. Learn to live a life that makes you feel happy like a leaf on a windy day that is flowing but still rooted to its stem.

To heal a wound, you need to stop touching it.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Review: ‘Lovely Runner’ K-drama (2024)

It is so hard nowadays to find a drama that you know you will return to it again but Lovely Runner is an exception. Man, what a drama! It is filled with every trope that exists. It is divided into three main parts and is a true traveller drama that is not as confusing as other dramas. K-dramas are now creating more male leads that are cheerful and lovable like Ryu Sun Jae. He is literally a loser in love and what a plot twist in the second ep that I did not expect.

Im Sol, is an angel and a hilarious character that did every embarrassing thing to protect her Sun Jaeeeee, hahaha. The girl went through a lot to change her and his fate, but if you are tied by the string of fate, nothing can stop it. The family of both is freaking hilarious, especially Sun Jae’s father. He can’t believe that his son can be this loser for a girl, his reaction is priceless. Im Sol’s mother and brother is another story of sarcasm.

I loved her grandmother and just predicted she was the mastermind. The plot was everything, we get to see idol and fangirl trope, friends to lover trope, dating trope, and even enemies to lover trope which is my personal favourite. In every timeline, their meeting is iconic and hilarious. Kim Tae Sung and Baek In Hyuk need a shout-out for their screen time filled with entertainment.

Now talking about the cinematography, it is like a rainshower that you watch from your window. How the rain falls upon the leaf petals like droplets and how flowers glow in the rain enhancing their beauty. How colourful umbrellas are seen everywhere and how much we want to jump in the puddle and let the rain wash away all our sadness is what the cinematography looks like, you really want to enter into the screen. There is no doubt acting was top-notch.

How much both try to erase each other from their life, but fate always wants them to tangle with each other. Now talking about the ending, to be honest, I don’t personally like the ending of many K-dramas because they drag problems till half of the last episode and only half part is left to show the couple’s happy moments which are rushed.

But Lonely Runner is an exception. The last few episodes did not drag the villain part of the story but let it flow normally with the scenes, which I liked and the last episode was just about their happy moments which is very rare for a K-drama. Lastly, Byeon Woo Seok deserves every appreciation, he truly killed it and Kim Hye Yoon is a sweetheart in acting and their height difference is to swoon for.

The OST is beautiful is an understatement it matched with the vibe preciously.

My Rating: 9/10

Total Episodes: 16

My Favourite Episodes: 11 and 16

Genre: Time traveller, comedy, and romance

If there’s a fate that doesn’t change no matter how much you try to change it means the choice didn’t change. There are choices you make even though you know the consequences. Because you like it. – Sun Jae to Im Sol.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Taare Zameen Par (Stars on the Earth)

“If you want to win competitions, then breed racehorses dammit, don’t have kids!”

Taare Zameen Par, the Indian movie released in 2007, has so much in it that I get goosebumps every time I watch it. I was too young when I watched the movie but still, I remember how much it reflects our society. Ishaan is a young boy with dyslexia and his older brother is a genius. And Ishaan’s father has the same expectations from both but only one can fulfill them. He fails to understand not every child is the same even when they have the same blood running. Ishaan’s father always shows anger at him because he can’t be like his older brother or other children. He can’t read or write, but rather than finding out why he is struggling, he accuses him of not doing enough. Ishaan was the boy who needed more love from his parents and equally, the assurance and acceptance he longed for. There is a scene in the movie, where he was roaming and saw a father with his toddler on his shoulder buying him a gola (an ice ball) and he was there just standing alone. The love and care that he deserves and wants from his father never began but only the series of disappointments he felt every single step in his life. Even his teacher could not understand him and he was sent to a hostel which he assumed was a place where parents send their children to punish. Ishaan was a genius in drawing but not in studies, his father labeled him lazy because learning what is written in the textbook is important. But then his teacher, Nikumbh understood and taught him how to write and read. And he was the one who understood him and that should be his parents. But again parents are so engaged in finding their children’s mistakes that they fail to see what mistakes they are committing. Nikumbh understood Ishaan because he also had dyslexia. One good teacher can change everything like Nikumbh did for Ishaan, but it’s hard to find that teacher.

My mother was my guide when we watched this movie. Apart from what I learned she explained to me so much. She told me that not every child is the same and that is okay, every child is special but some have other specialities that this world calls names. Every parent who does not have a special child will never understand how much it takes for the child to grow up being loved not just by his parents but by the world as well. Why should a child expect love from others when their own parents do not care for them. Society is so harsh that until they don’t go through it, they won’t understand. Understanding a child is every parent’s job but not everyone can do it. Blaming the child is not an option; they do not choose to be born like that. Every child is special in their own way but not every parent can see this. If it is easy for the parents to point out their children’s mistakes then the world will do it anyway. Ending this by saying that every child is a star on this earth (The literal meaning of the movie title).

There have been such gems amongst us who changed the course of the world because they could look at the world differently.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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