A Random Midnight Thought…

Acceptance of what can’t change can actually change your whole life.

The most important thing I have learned in my life is that to succeed I need to accept and face my faults rather than make excuses to save myself and give myself false assurance. It is all about us, in the end, we can’t blame anyone else if it’s even their fault nothing is going to change anyway. Nobody will take responsibility for our life, we only have to take it and acceptance is vital. The hardest thing is to accept the inevitable and we know nothing will change it, it has happened but we need to accept it. I know myself and my faults but accepting that will highlight my insecurities I want to run away from. But I know somewhere that I need to accept it, it is a part of me and I am not perfect nor do I want to become one. I just need to see myself through all my flaws and accept all the faults I made but also it made me reach somewhere. If that fault had not happened maybe I would not be here sharing my words with the world. When I started blogging, I did a lot of research but never I doubted how I was going to do it and here I am. It is going to be three years of my blogging journey in 2 months, isn’t it crazy but it is said true when you are having fun, time flies. With blogging many good things came but before I made myself better I had accepted the inevitable of my life that I can’t change.

It takes a lot of courage to accept the fault but it is the way to move ahead. Failure is not a bad thing but a thing that will play a role in shaping your dreams and life because through unright ways we reach unexpected destinations. You are doing great and don’t shy away from your failure keep the courage to accept it maybe it might open doors to things that you always longed for or things that you never knew you needed.  

This comeback is personal, it’s apology to myself.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Book Review: Icebreaker by Hannah Grace

“I can’t believe you think I could ever reject you, Anastasia, You have no idea, do you? The lengths I’d go to if you’d let me. What I’d do to make you happy.” – Nate to Anastasia.

Once again, remind me not to judge a book by its cover. But here the cover was absolutely beautiful but the inside was not up to the mark. I do not consider myself a big romance reader because whenever I read a romance book it does not make me feel butterflies but empty from the inside. For me, romance is not excessive physical intimacy but things that make me feel the whole zoo in my stomach. Staring, tension, slow burn, light hand touches, gestures, and small things that scream intimate love.

As a literature student, I am not a stranger to how writers for centuries have written female characters as inferior and villains. And in the 21st century, it is the same. Anastasia Allen, the FMC is so annoyingly written that I could not bear to continue because of her. Nate Hawkins, what another green flag.

To be honest, when I first read the meeting of FMC and MMC I thought Nate would be a red flag but the way he understood her and talked to her was so green-coded. There is no plot in the book, it is just straight-up smut and forced smut I felt like and I didn’t feel any chemistry between the characters as Anastasia was so annoying from the start.

The only thing I liked about this book was Nate’s friendship group was freaking hilarious and I loved it. Henry, the character he is; if he exists in real life, I want him as my best friend. What a guy, I have never admired a fictional character like Henry and his book is coming very soon. He kept whole toiletries needed by girls in his room, so anyone who needed them could use them. I hope Hannah doesn’t ruin it and shows Henry how savage, straightforward, and understanding he is.

And lastly, the Epilogue was absolutely not needed, it was one of the parts that killed the vibe of the book for me.

Rating: 2/5 (only for Henry)

“Whether you two are together or not, if you are tired of Nathan you can sleep in my room. I’ll get the air mattress again.” – Henry to Anastasia.

Side Note: I just want to clarify that this is entirely my opinion, you are free to love this book and I am free to give my opinion on this book. I would be very happy if you loved this book but please do not take this review to heart and it is okay to have different tastes. Thank You.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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The Interpretation of The Society.

The biggest challenge of life is to be yourself in a world that is trying to make you like everyone else.

Growing up, studying, going to a good college, making friends, getting a high-paying job, owning an apartment and car, getting married and having children all before 30 is what a typical society’s interpretation looks like. Is life really about following the stereotypes that have been going on for a long time? And we have seen the result of it, haven’t we? Following the pattern of things that have already left a not-so-good inspiration in the world is pathetic right? Society expects from us so much that they are not able to achieve yet they force it on the passing generation. The interpretation of society is amusing, they don’t let us dream and if we dream they make us so afraid of achieving it and simply put us in the position of going with the life pattern that has already been set even though it brings so much trauma to us. I have learned a very important thing: if you want to do something extraordinary that doesn’t set with the society pattern then you also have to face the reality of life already set by the society. We want to do something challenging, something new that brings us joy but also be complacent with reality, it’s harsh but it’s true. It is so hard to find something that brings us joy and if we truly find it then we have to take the risk of achieving it and bringing out all the flaws that might drag us down. The hope and promise to the future self that amidst all the society’s interpretations you will always come back to me and find your way back home, back to yourself. The pressure of society goes away when you meet the right person, the person that is a reflection of you and you can just…be you.

“Talk to yourself like someone you love.” – Brene Brown.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Review: ‘Queen of Tears’ K-drama (2024)

“One day, when only one of us is left, the other one can come and meet them. Then it won’t be scary at all. Because we’ll be together.” – Hong Hae-in and Baek Hyun Woo.

Let me start with the most recent hit K-drama that broke so many records – ‘Queen of Tears’ starring Kim Soo-hyun and Kim Ji-Won. Honestly, it was my first K-drama where I was on time with each episode and eagerly awaited the next episode. Let’s start with the main leads so they are shown as a married couple and I love the chemistry between Kim Soo-hyun and Kim Ji-Won. It was vital that the lead couple should look like husband and wife and the casting of the main leads was perfect they really gave that vibe which for me was important.

Now on to the acting if you are a follower of K-drama you know Kim Ji-won as Rachel Yoo in The Heirs and Kim Soo-Hyun is one of the highest-paid actors which means acting was expected to be top-notch. And as expected the acting was top-notch. No one can play a cold character like Kim Ji-Won. The drama genre is said to be rom-com, but nothing in the drama screams rom-com. In every episode, there is so much crying by the leads. There is a lack of communication and through that misunderstanding arises but I loved that they did not drag it out long.

So from the start, the relationship between the couple is not good and I loved that they didn’t start on a happy point but went directly with the problem and I loved the flashbacks. It started with the couple and then both families got involved so the flow was amazing.

After the fifth episode, Baek Hyun Woo was a big green flag for the way he was always there for his wife and the love that was shown hidden, the comeback of it was mind-blowing. K-dramas have never portrayed “Man in Love” the way they portrayed Baek Hyun Woo. He has cried every single episode and prayed for his wife. What a green flag. Hong Hae-in, the woman she is. No woman has ever loved a man like Hong Hae-in loved Baek Hyun Woo as he was her first and only love.

The plot was amazing, there was thriller, tension, chemistry, family bonding, and the way everyone got a happy ending. I loved the ending it was very realistic and the writer is a genius way in the end everything that was happening from the first episode made sense. The drama is realistic so there is not much romance but many crying scenes and in the end, it’s Audience of Tears not Queen of Tears.

Now OST, I loved it. It was sung by Crush – Love With All My Heart. It is so soothing and does not overpower the scenes.

My Rating: 9/10.

Total Episodes: 16

My Favorite Episodes: 8 and 15

Genres: Romance, Romantic comedy, and Comedy. (The genres can be deceiving)

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Setbacks.

Do not pray for an easy life, pray for the strength to endure a difficult one.

Is it important to have days where you feel like you are getting nowhere? It is important to have days where you feel like a failure. Is it okay if you have a setback? The amount of time I have felt that my life and hard work are going absolutely nowhere is just insane. Life is so funny on one side they make you feel like you are in heaven’s bed and the next moment it throws you from the stairs to the road of hell. Even though many say that life is all about ups and downs nobody gives you the solution or assurance that everything will be alright. But this world will blame you for not working hard and not meeting the expectations of others. If you look at setbacks they test you till you are at the end of a dark hole, they never let you come back again easily. When people say that you truly understand what life is and what you are meant to do is when you are in the worst situation in your life. Your setbacks will make you feel that you are the worst to live and no positivity can reach out to you. Funny isn’t it? Then what is it that is supposed to reach out to us to pull out of the endless setbacks? The answers that you need to find yourself! If you are struck just think why you decided to do this and choose this irrespective of so many options and then there will be so many answers to it and maybe more questions for yourself and believe me, you will find the answers. It is said right that what we are truly looking for is within us just don’t let things like setbacks hold you back for things that you truly want. Embracing failure is the key to success because a person should know their weakness as they are the reason why setbacks can’t hold enough and you can break through them.

setbacks HAPPEN…go get it again

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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WOMEN.

“Behind every successful woman is

Herself.”

Women. What a powerful four-letter word that holds so much power within to face the world full of so much. I will say that looking up to a woman is such an empowering tool for many other women. Being a woman in this world is not a cup of tea, but we all are still standing with our heads high and ready to face challenges. Bleeding every month, carrying a child for nine months, giving birth, looking after yourself and your family, achieving dreams, being a good parent to the child, dealing with failure, bringing a shoulder for people, and an endless list of things that women have to do. Being a woman seriously gives you a different level of confidence when you start to look at yourself in a new light when you start to believe in yourself, and when you start to take your life and dreams seriously. You don’t know how powerful you are and I am here to tell you that you as a woman are the greatest gift to the world and never ever doubt yourself. Being a woman is not easy and you are already doing it, so I am so proud of you and you shall also be. You have your own glow that will most definitely shine just remove those things and feelings that keep you away from it. You are a shining star in the darkness that saves the world from being cold and a happy sun that brings warmth to the world. Don’t limit yourself, you will truly know your limit when you will go beyond the imagination of what you can really do. Also, when a woman supports another woman, it is the most beautiful thing to exist in this world as we rise by lifting others. Let me tell you that you deserve the world and you are the only one who can give that to yourself so fight for yourself and show yourself how much you love being a WOMAN!

Happy Women’s Day to all my wonderful and strong women who have such an incredible aura like a queen on the throne. You are the best and nothing can change it:)

Real queens fix each other’s crown.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Feeling like a FaILuRe tOdAY…

Everything I was afraid

of happening, happened.

Nothing is working out, until yesterday everything was going fine I thought I was on the right track and with time everything would settle but here I am today writing this blog post about the feelings haunting me day and night. I do know I was always the person who did so much yet never received the success that I dreamed about Alas! After all, I might reach somewhere but it only takes a day to make me feel that I am standing in the same place or maybe I have dropped more. The feeling of failure is the worst after doing so much yet you still failed, I failed and the funny thing is that it hurts so much yet you can’t do anything about it, it makes you look like a loser in front of YOU. What answers to provide to others when you can’t even give yourself one. I don’t know why it is so hard to accomplish things that you are good at, I don’t know why things never work out, I don’t know why nobody is ever satisfied, and I don’t know when the hurt will ever heal or it will pierce every dreams and ambitions like glass pieces shatter everywhere. What is worse is that all the hard work, all the sleepless nights, all the expectations, all the dreams just never seem to be fulfilled, and yes I am in that place. My age is increasing and I am still standing at the same place with nothing in my hand yet I can’t do anything about it. Tears want to drop but not a single drop left as my inside feels like a desert barren land empty where nothing is visible. I am lost and everywhere I see myself looking tired and hollow like a failure.

The user is mentally exhausted.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Oh, I Love Being A Morning Person!

Let me adjust my crown and get my day started.

It might be shocking to the people that morning people do exist. I have come across many posts saying that now waking up has become a joke to them. To be honest, all thanks to my mother because she was always very strict with me about sleeping early and waking up early and of course school. I never liked missing school, obviously for friends. Even though I stayed up late, I still love to wake up early in the morning if my morning is late that means my whole day will be wasted as I will be so tired. I remember the time when I used to have a good and long sleep at night but I used to wake up tired. So my father explained that anything more than we need will only destroy us. I don’t know what really makes me happy about mornings but I can say that I get more time to do things without being lazy. I remember when I finished one of my important exams I remember reading every book available on Wattpad and even ignoring my friend’s messages that they had to call and check if I was okay. Pretty old days when you just had to think about exams and once it’s finished you could enjoy until the next semester. Can’t believe that being an adult means dealing with so many things simultaneously. Exams are not even finished yet we still have to think about our next step or pending assignments that are just piling up it does not seem that we are completing anything because work never finishes, it just fills the place that gets vacant by the old work ‘Sigh.’ Every morning is like a ray of hope where everyone is sleeping. Yet, you are awake to find how beautiful the world is and just seeing the birds fly, the sky waking up, the sun rising, and quiet amidst the world’s chaos. You get to just forget your problem and breathe in the air that surrounds you because for you it’s just you, the world, and the sunrise that is eagerly waiting for your achievement and silently cheering up on you, Oh, I love being a MORNING PERSON!

Today I will be a ray of freaking sunshine.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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A Trip To Remember…

“Travel far enough, you meet yourself.”

David Mitchell, Cloud Atlas.

September 24, 2023

A single phone call invitation for my mother and me to visit another state in India allows us to extend our memories by capturing the beauty of our country. On September 24, 2023, four of my family members (mama, mami, aunty, mother, and me) booked our train tickets to Ahmedabad, Gujarat from our hometown for 12th January 2024, Friday. Since then my anticipation especially was on top of the mountain as it has been ages since I have travelled a long distance by train precisely to be 10 years.

December, 2023

I started a new journey towards my career and so far I am loving it. I got the news that my exams will be in January now when I didn’t know that is how my December month started. Amidst all the wedding season, studying, lectures, and overthinking sessions I got the notice that my exams would be postponed. Yay to be honest I would not mind if I had not gone but still, I would hate that I missed the opportunity.

January, 2024

Finally, the new year came in 2024 I did not realise it because of all the tension of my exams even though it was postponed but still I had my internals that could start anywhere in January and I did not want to miss any lectures. I prepared all of my projects to be on the safe side. Then finally the preparation of packing and we were supposed to do a lot of shopping (my mother) there so we took a little with us.

12th – 15th January, 2024

At night we reached the station and started the journey and on 13th January we reached Ahmedabad and were welcomed by a winter that we didn’t get where we live. We Indians have that thing wherever we go we have to have tea so we have a cup of tea to soothe our souls and proceed to the place where we all will be living for the next 3 days. The place is just beautiful and calming and where we stayed every day all around the place there is a market of clothes and vegetables which makes it more lively. We all enjoyed every second of living there since the atmosphere and people were so friendly and lively. We all visited some of the famous places and got to know the history behind them. Ahmedabad has such a historical culture from food to places everywhere you will find yourself surrounded by heritage. Also, the second you look up to the sky the flocks of birds just pass through you and huge flocks of birds fly together it was just beautiful to watch. And also where we were living there was the airport close by so I saw many aeroplanes up close with my bare eyes and it just felt like a special memory that I will hold forever.

If you know me you know I LOVE FOOD, and I really wanted to try authentic Gujarati dishes, and I did and loved it. It was refreshing to try something different and delicious. Then comes the part in which I have a hate relationship with shopping. My other family members shopped a lot and I have this book lover thing in me that wherever I visit I look at if there is any book market near the place and same I did and found a book market so on the last day since we already had a handful of luggage I just bought three books and I am grateful for it. The weather and the foreignness of the sweater on my body were so much appreciated by me.

The trip was great and fun we all laughed a lot and I even learned some Gujarati words. It was refreshing that in three days we all did so many great things. With the right people even the wrong time becomes right. I never knew taking a trip, even a small one, was so easy only when you have the right people and the attitude of just doing it.

If you never go, you will never know.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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Deep Feelings!

You can’t stop the waves, but you can learn to surf.

It is really dangerous when you start to feel, and it is more difficult when you don’t know what are you feeling and why are you feeling? I was never good at handling my feelings because I didn’t know how to. As an adult, it is so much that with our own feelings, we have to look at what others feel too, how brutal is that. Here I can’t even deal with managing mine yet, I have to care about others as well, funny isn’t it? Now that I am writing about this post my feelings are all over the place, and I am unable to figure out what actually is happening to me. However, in my course of going through so many feelings, I have realised that you just need to give time that is what I have done and will be doing. You are mistaken if you think that feelings are always about the present or the future no absolutely not it’s about the past that comes crashing down on you. Past feelings and how much regret we have is another kind of inner battle we have to deal with every single night. Sometimes the wound is so deep that it doesn’t even heal physically. Have you ever done just opening up the window and staring right at the moon closing your eyes and just thinking about what is happening to you? Even though the wind is blowing around you and you have plenty of space to breathe, something is suffocating you and the worst is that you don’t know what is suffocating you.

But at the same time when you open your eyes, you see how beautiful the moon is amidst the dark night which everyone is afraid of. But remember the moon and stars will not shine if there is no darkness. Everyone is afraid of darkness but forget once they see how beautiful it makes the world. Just like that if your life is not going great that doesn’t mean nothing will fall in place remember moon also has to go through phases just so that it can be whole and more beautiful.

everyone has a chapter that they don’t read out loud.

Till we meet again, Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Keep Smiling – a girl who likes to write.

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